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Weird Stories
There are two amazing stories that I just can't read, though I plan to pull up my socks and read one of them, because when I left it, it was just getting, well, really horrible but I'm hoping it's going towards a better place. The story has a really amazing, well written young Sam who breaks my heart with how brave and how kind he manages to be under the most horrific circumstances. It's gone on quite a bit since I stepped back—I can a terrible wuss, my goodness, but really, I *swear*! I'm going to start reading it again because I miss this really well thought out bit of world-building and excellent characterization. It's by ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
brosedshield and lavinialavender and it's called Freak Camp: A Monster By Any Other Name
The other one, I swear, I can't read it. It's very well known, Suite!verse by leonidaslion. It's astronomically triggering for me and I don't even know why. Reading it makes me break out in a sweat and my stomach cramp and I cringe for days after I read it. Or used to read it, I had to stop. I occasionally skim new installments to see if Dean has managed to kill himself yet because that would be a happy ending in my book. Seriously, that thing tips me into a depression that's ridiculous, and yet, I've read a ton of her stuff and not had it bother me like this one—in fact enjoyed it very much and recced stories to friends. I even tried writing my own Evil!Sam to see if I could kind of water down my reactions to this one but no dice. I just can't look into something that horrible and not want to reduce it to manageable bits, hah!
I wonder why these particular stories are too much for me. A few others have come close, but the writers have been kind enough to do a little hand holding for me and when I pushed myself I found that it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be but man….
Do you have stories that you admire but can't read because of subject matter? I'm not talking about fic that's so…shall we say, rare…that it's unreadable; I mean good solid stories that are just emotionally overwhelming for you.
Let's see if LJ let's us answer each other.
Unrelated, I owe an answer tochemm80, who asked my opinion about Sir, and yes, I have thinky thoughts about Papa Winchester! Coming soon as I get them all together. ;)
brosedshield and lavinialavender and it's called Freak Camp: A Monster By Any Other NameThe other one, I swear, I can't read it. It's very well known, Suite!verse by leonidaslion. It's astronomically triggering for me and I don't even know why. Reading it makes me break out in a sweat and my stomach cramp and I cringe for days after I read it. Or used to read it, I had to stop. I occasionally skim new installments to see if Dean has managed to kill himself yet because that would be a happy ending in my book. Seriously, that thing tips me into a depression that's ridiculous, and yet, I've read a ton of her stuff and not had it bother me like this one—in fact enjoyed it very much and recced stories to friends. I even tried writing my own Evil!Sam to see if I could kind of water down my reactions to this one but no dice. I just can't look into something that horrible and not want to reduce it to manageable bits, hah!
I wonder why these particular stories are too much for me. A few others have come close, but the writers have been kind enough to do a little hand holding for me and when I pushed myself I found that it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be but man….
Do you have stories that you admire but can't read because of subject matter? I'm not talking about fic that's so…shall we say, rare…that it's unreadable; I mean good solid stories that are just emotionally overwhelming for you.
Let's see if LJ let's us answer each other.
Unrelated, I owe an answer to
chemm80, who asked my opinion about Sir, and yes, I have thinky thoughts about Papa Winchester! Coming soon as I get them all together. ;)
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ah, all right, that's no doubt what got me all hung up. there has to be some kind of justice or at least regret for the horror, or i can't take the horror at all!
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I completely agree with you! If I hadn't written the story myself, I don't think I could have read it either. There were parts where I winced myself, but it seemed to be right for the characters and situations. Plus? It was kind of fun to let loose and be horrible! I remember asking different folks if I was going too far, lol! I was so nervous about being so bad--ah, the good old days.
Hi Paul Gross! You're a very handsome man! *GGG*
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