*sigh*

[roxy]

Today, I had a very messy, loud, and wet breakdown on the phone, calling out from work. It was truly disgusting, filled with lots of hyperventilating and some snot. This comes from trying to work through a labyrinth of shit that I created by not being on top of my dad's stuff. It really sucks that I can't point at someone else and blame them for all the crap that I'm swimming through. Besides, I've already cursed myself out more times than anyone else could.

I spent the major part of the day on the phone and there might be some progress and I might get out of this almost okay. But I'm not taking a breath until I know for sure. One bright spot--I got a lot of reading done while holding for everyone and their granny and the bank was very patient with my loud, soggy outburst. I guess this is going to take a very long time to fix, and in the meantime, I can't let it rule me but fuck, it's hard for it not to.

Thanks, I had to get that off my chest. Wow, and yesterday was so nice. I kind of knew I was going to pay for it today. Ach, well, tomorrow's another day, yes?

The icon says it all. ;)

Comments

[twinsarein.livejournal.com]

*ack* It sounds like Ben & Jerry's with two spoons is on the agenda. Just let me know the flavor.

[aurora-bee.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

[rednihilist.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're having a tough time, hon (and, yikes, that image in your icon always slays me).

*cuddles*

[orbiting-saturn.livejournal.com]

Aw, bb! I'm sorry things are tough for you right now. Sometimes you just need to really let it out. ::hugs::

This must be messy breakdown week because yesterday I did the same thing after I got a gentle letdown letter for a job application. I've been unemployed for over a year now and that was the first time I really broke down since I got laid off.

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

[rosy5000.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry today was such a bad and hard day for you. :( You know you can always come here to let it out though.

*lots and lots of hugs and love* ♥

[jesseofthenorth.livejournal.com]

Sorry today was hard and crappy and involved snot an tears.
Hope it gets better soon.

[nomango.livejournal.com]

{{Hugs}} - lots and lots of hugs. As a veteran of soggy breakdowns and red tape, I sincerely sympathise. Wish you better times soon x

[sage]

*hugs and hugs*

Dealing with the estate of a loved one is one of the hardest, most emotional slogs there is. Please be gentle with yourself!

[tabaqui]

Oh, bb. I wish i could help. If i can do *anything*....
You still have my number, right?
*hugs you tight*
*luffs*

[silsbee329.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[myownghost.livejournal.com]

My father and my father-in-law both died without leaving a will. Big fun for the executors. I'm sorry you have this mountain of shit to deal with, but it's good that the bank reps on the phone were kind to you. (They probably deal with the frustrated anger of the bereaved all the time. I tell you, after Gerry died, I acted like a crazy woman for about a year. It was all I could do to plod along a day at a time.)

[norwich36.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* and *Hugs* to you.

[macaronielbow.livejournal.com]

Sending good thoughts your way...

[danceswithgary]

*hug*

[jlvsclrk.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[dawnybee.livejournal.com]

This comes from trying to work through a labyrinth of shit that I created by not being on top of my dad's stuff. It really sucks that I can't point at someone else and blame them for all the crap that I'm swimming through

But remember, even Superman has backup so don't be afraid to ask for help from those around you. Every queen needs a court, lady.

I guess this is going to take a very long time to fix, and in the meantime, I can't let it rule me but fuck, it's hard for it not to.


I know. I know. The only thing we can do is roll and duck with life's punches and hopefully get a few TKOs of our own. But you'll be okay--it'll all be okay.

[lexalicious70.livejournal.com]

Aw hon. *HUGS* Hang in there! Much love to you.

<3 <3

[tuckercat2.livejournal.com]

I send you HUGS!!!

and more HUGS!!!! Wish I could just be there for a shoulder for you.... you know to cry on. I know I wish for one when the shit hits the fan or the break downs happen(s)!!!

[ctbn60.livejournal.com]

Sorry honey I hope tomorrow is better for you!

[altimeterrise.livejournal.com]

"Red alert, sir! Stress triggered breakdown at the R-M-R site!"
"The R-M-R site?! Quick soldier, ship out the basket of kittens!"
"...even the one with holstein spots?" *wibbles*
"...oh all right, you can keep the *one*. But send the others out right away!"
"Yes, sir!"


...because fic is the answer to all of life's woes. Hope things start looking up! *hugs*

Hiya honey

[bonehed.livejournal.com]

Sorry to be late, but I am here to tell you it will get better. I know people always say that and sometimes things look bleak enough like it won't get brighter, but I have found myself coping easier lately.

The paperwork stuff is a major hurdle-no denying. Try to slog through that best you can and it will be as though an enormous weight has been taken off your shoulders (and your heart).

And you have friends far and wide across this earth that send their love and very best thoughts to you. I'm just one more in a long line.

XXOOOOO,
me