well, hell.

[roxy]

I just wanna quit work, wear my pajamas all day long and do nothing by write Over The Hills, like all day, everyday. It'll be twenty-thousand short-ass chapters of not much happening, but I have it on good authority fandom likes that kind of stuff nowadays. Every time I sit down to noodle around with it, I feel good. And I think even with all the house stuff, Dean's still pretty much in character. *tapdance, go me*

It's a good thing to just write for yourself sometimes. All my domestic stories are written with me in mind, what makes me happy. The other stuff, I'm definitely thinking of an audience. No curtain fic is beta'd. What's the point, that's my motto. This gives me the freedom to just wing stuff in there. I wanna dog, I wanna lake, I wanna big ass 4thJuly BBQ, and I don't want to explain why or how...It's my world and I'm just letting you visit. ;D 'Cause, maybe Sam and Dean might go for a balloon ride, or maybe go dancing in some little riverside bar somewhere in the middle of nowhere, or maybe find a kid abandoned on their doorstep, with a note, "here's your kid" but no indication of which one of them is the father....

HELL NO. IT'S ME. None of that is ever going to happen.

So, what's this I read about folks outing their BBs before summary time? Do they not get how LJ works? Or maybe they don't understand the mystery portion of the Bang. I hope no one got skewered. Geez, that selection part is the worst! It's like being the fat kid in the ugly dress holding up the wall at the seventh grade dance all over again!
...not that I ever had an ugly dress. *sniffle*

Before you feel too sad for me, by junior year, everyone was afraid of me. And I never even had to choke a bitch! Life is good like that, sometimes. :)

Mother's Day is coming up. I've lost both my moms--my little mother and my stolen adopted mom. I miss them both terribly. Hardly a day goes by when I don't think about my mom. I hear music and think, "She would have liked this," or see a good-looking guy and think, "Just her flavor." She would have loved SpN so hard. Perfect subject matter--man, I'd love to have discussion with her about the angel/demon thing! She would have been right with me on the Dean thing—oh yes. And Sam would have snuck up on her the way he snuck up on me, and for the same reasons.

I miss that woman, damn it.

Okay, so, Showtime tonight! Keep making me happy, Show! End on the right note, because I got some angsty, evil, Knight of Hell Dean fic just waiting to bust out! And for god's sake, don't fuck up and drop it all in Sam's lap!!!

eta:Spellcheck is the mufukin devil, children. Never forget that.

Comments

[emeraldsedai.livejournal.com]

Showtime tonight! OMG that wasted episode last week disappointed me...

I've never participated in a BB. Do people who want to participate sometimes get refused? Like, sorry, the music stopped and you're still standing up and nobody wants you on their lap?

I love your reminiscences of your mom!

[askellington.livejournal.com]

LOL! No, no, nothing that dramatic! It's the waiting for artists to pick your story based on an anonymous summary. Now there, I've had the music stop and still been standing there with my wilted little corsage, my punch turning to water as the ice melted...*heavy breathing*

I'm enjoying that image way to much!

I'm hoping with all my hope that I get picked by excellent artists again!

Oh man, my mom...she was an amazing, amazing woman! She really was my best friend. :)

[emeraldsedai.livejournal.com]

Thank you for that clarification. I am relieved on behalf of fandom. :D

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

Aaaaah claiming is so gut wrenching!!! What's this about outing bb summaries?? I love your curtain FIGC, and I saw there is new but haven't had a chance to read it yet, with traveling.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU!!! And don't worry, it'll be there for you! :D

I can't remember where I saw that--brain like a senile sieve--but I believe some writers (newbies?) posted their summaries in beta comms--I think that's what it was. At any rate, they posted summaries with their names, kind of killing that whole anonymous thing, oy. But when I read that I remembered also that I'd talked about the fic here and posted with semi-spoilery icon. Not that most folks read this LJ but kind of doofy on my part, yas.

I hate claiming. It's too damn nerve-wracking!

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

I hear you about losing our mothers and then missing them on Mother's Day. Makes it a bittersweet thing. <3

I vote for quitting your job, wearing jammies, and writing up a storm!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

I like the way you think. Now, call Mr. R and tell him all about our great plan!!

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

I will! He can't possibly resist us when we work together! ;D

[fufaraw]

Roxy, ILU.

Just needed to be said. I just caught up on all your posts since yesterday. Taken all at once, reminded me that there're a lot of points on which we agree, and your turn of phrase makes me smile.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

AW!! *HUGS*

I'm so glad my posts can make you smile! :)

♥

[casey28.livejournal.com]

I like reading fics where "nothing much happens", domestic stuff is awesome. :)

I lost my mom last year, so I know how you feel.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ah, I'm glad you do! I love writing this fic, it's so relaxing, like cocoa and fluffy warm blankets. :D

Losing your mom is something you just never get over. You learn to live with it and concentrate on all the good things. If I didn't have my girls, it'd be a little rougher, I think.

*HUGS*

[tabaqui]

*hugs you tight*

I got to visit my mom yesterday and today (tues/weds), as she and my sis came down from NC. I miss her terribly being just states away - i can't even bring myself to think about the other. Missing my dad's bad enough.
*hugs you more*

Writing for yourself should *always* be a thing you do. :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*HUGS HUGS HUGS*

I'm so happy you were able to visit your mom! ♥