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roxy ([personal profile] roxy) wrote2004-10-26 11:06 am

My Brain

Last night, I had a good time with The Niece. She's so brill and so funny.
We talked about life, introspection and how after major events, one takes the time to sit down, examine what happened and judge how it made one grow as a person, what effect it could have in the future...stuff like that.
Except...
I don't think I've ever done that, even when I was young and had my whole life before me. I don't remember ever having had some shattering experience and trying to figure out the whys and wherefores of it, how it changed me or what repercussions it might have. My reaction to shitty stuff pretty much fell into the category, "Fuck me" or "fuck them".
Does that make me shallow?

I don't know.

I don't care.

She's a very very good person, my Niece. She's an incredibly loving, forgiving and generous person. Maybe that's why she thinks so much about these kind of thngs, maybe it's because she's young. I think sometimes I disappoint her.

But, I'm me. This is me.This is all I've ever been. I whine and curse when shit happens and I wade through it because you have to.If I could get someone else to do it, I would in a second.
I'm not a "good person." Not like my Niece. And again, I don't care.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to really know yourself, warts and all. Especially the warts, and than like it.
Really get to like it a lot.
you better love yourself, because *no one* else can ever love you enough if you don't love yourself first. We all have moments of self doubt,and they can be pretty scary, moments were we feel like we're alone on the planet. Those moments suck, as Buffy put it, "Beyond the telling of it."

It really helps if you like yourself.

I know, you're probably saying, "Shut up, bitch. This advice I could get from a fortune cookie." True. But coming from me, it's more interesting, don't you think?

ETA: I'm stooopit.Real stoopit.
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2004-10-26 05:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, Ms. Thang.
:)
I guess i dunno what your warts are, but...
I lurve you.
I do.
Really.

And you're so right, and you'd make a GREAT fortune cookie writer.
And it sounds like you love yourself just fine, and i'm right there with ya, 'cause - this is ME, and i'm just fine.
*hugs you hard*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
See, you get it. And that's what's great about you, Babee!*hugs you back, does sekrit mindtwinz handshake*
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2004-10-26 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
*snuggles you*
*does handshake back*
*forgets how and hurts self*
:)

[identity profile] justabi.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 05:04 pm (UTC)(link)
So much more interesting coming from you. :) I'm glad you and the Niece had a good time.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, only I don't have a cruchy sweet outer layer, more's the pity.
Yeah, I always have a good time with her!

[identity profile] suzvoy.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Does NOT make you shallow. Just different from her :)

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you sweet, I'm going to go with your opinion, 'cause I like it! *hug*

[identity profile] suzvoy.livejournal.com 2004-10-27 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
And I'm right! ;) *hugs*

[identity profile] closingtime101.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
My reaction to shitty stuff pretty much fell into the category, "Fuck me" or "fuck them".
Oh, I love teh Roxeh rambles.
And this is so right. So right.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs you hard*

[identity profile] fromward.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 09:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Everyone's different. :) *hugs*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank god for that! It'd be pretty damn boring otherwise.*kisses*
beet: a beet (schiele "girl in plaid")

self-love!

[personal profile] beet 2004-10-26 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
There's wisdom here.

And I'm sure I'll get around to thinking about it after I get over giggling at the joke I just made.


Seriously, couldn't agree more with the importance of truly liking yourself. Ain't no stoopit I can see here.

Re: self-love!

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
*eyeballs selflove* well, that's important too! hee.
Oh, stoopit because I kept screwing up the cut. My techno-boobiness is legendary...

[identity profile] kitkat3979.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Nothing stupid here!

Everyone deals with problems in their own way. Don't worry so much!

*hugs*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-26 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
oh wow, I feel kind of bad because my whole point here was I'm cool like that... Personally, (save for certain times of the month in which I lose my damn mind and drive every one around me to drink)I think I'm cuter then a bugs ear.
Now when it comes to my *stuff*, weeeelll, then the angst and fear grabs me by the throat. Heh! *shrugs*

[identity profile] xsevenstitchesx.livejournal.com 2004-10-27 12:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I thought that was a bug's nose....? No, maybe it's his eyeball. Cuter then a bug's forehead? Cuter then a bug's left tit! Wait, no, that's different...

I feel like such a celebrity being mentioned in your lj. I'm so honored. And now that I'm commenting on your journal, it's alright if you feel a little starstruck. Just, you know, try not to swoon too much or your may pass out from sheer giddiness.
^runs in the family.

;P

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2004-10-27 02:40 pm (UTC)(link)
My Stars, ideed I is so honored. To have your royal presence here, in this, my humble journal, *sob* I'm beyond words...