my 30 day challenge FAIL

[roxy]

There will be a pause in my 30 days of me-me. I'm frantically trying to get my house in livable condition for my guest--a dear friend of mine, someone I've known for years and years and years. I'm excited. Also, stressed, anxious--just this side of panicky. Of course she knows me, knows what I'm like, but tell that to the part of my brain that likes to unhinge at the least bit of change. Also, there is a trip involved. Guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuyyyyyyyyys, you know I hate traveling. I hate vacations and staying strange places and agonizing over whether I have enough Imodium with me and will it work and god forbid, what happens if it doesn't and damn it, I won't be able to eat anything and, and, and....*hewp* I can go a very long time without eating stuff, and I'm really good at faking like I am eating, but it's exhausting!! Ach! I will concentrate on the good stuff, and worry about the other shit when I'm there. Good thing is, Fam is my backbone. When stuff starts getting rough, I can count on them to try and tone it down, thank god.

And it's not all bad. My house is clean! Like, no dust and random shit laying here and there. I'm so pleased. And when I retire, it can be like this allllllllll the time.

HAHAHAHAAAAAA. Whew! *wipes eyes*

Anyhoo, when I'm back here, there will be pics of celeb crushes and me, whoooooo!! And more fascinating business about, yes, me. If you're still reading this, thank you for having that freak-out with me. ;D
♥

Comments

[fufaraw]

Have a good time with your friend. We'll be here when you get back. (We never go away. You can't get rid of us.)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*CLINGS*

Thank goodness for that!!

[supernutjapan.livejournal.com]

Sooo nice you can be with your friend bb! Try to focus on that as much as you can and have a fabulous time!!!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Okay, going to be putting every effort into focusing on just the good stuff! ♥

[tabaqui]

Awwwww! I feel your pain, bb. I clean the fuck out of my house when i have company coming. Not like it's some huge, disgusting pit, but....yeah, i dust. And am brung low by massive allergy attacks but...DUSTING. Has to be done.

I hope your trip is better than you think! *pets you* Poor you. I used to be the same, re: eating. Nothing major abdominal surgery won't cure.

Have a good trip, see you soon! *luffs*
*smooches*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*clings to you*

I know most of my problem is in my head, so I feel like a big baby sometimes. I know how fortunate I really am, but I can't stop just...ARGH!!!!

But my trip is going to be GREAT!! I'm going to LOVE every minute of it!! Yeah!!

:D

[gingersnap1224.livejournal.com]

Deep breath. It will be fine. You are going to have an awesome time! Can't wait to hear all about it.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*IIIIINHAAAAAAAAALE*

*whew!!*

YES. I AM! It will be amazing and I'll tell you aaaalllll about it. In detail! :D

[sillie]

Have fun with your friend bb! *hugs*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my dear! *huggles*

[fireheart13.livejournal.com]

Where are you going?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

We're going to DC for the weekend, basically, checking out the African American museum...trying to trigger my anxiety...

[runedgirl.livejournal.com]

Have fun!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Thank you--working on it! :D

[rosy5000.livejournal.com]

I hope you can focus on the fun stuff so you can enjoy yourself. I wanna hear all kinds of stories so I can live vicariously through you. :D And enjoy the time with your friend! *hugs* ♥

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Thank you, lovey, I'm doing my best! Had some fun today. :D

God, other folks would love to be here and I act like I'm on a forced march....

[somersault-j.livejournal.com]

OH my goooood! I hope you still had a good time! I bet you had a good time (and I bet you're happy when you're home again too). <3

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

NOT HOME YET--WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!! D:

[somersault-j.livejournal.com]

NOOOOOOOO!!! SOON???? (Still hoping you're having a good time!)