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roxy ([personal profile] roxy) wrote2008-11-14 09:50 pm

SpN ficlet: A Crooked Man

I'm just thrilled to death that something came out. I'm on a slow motion roll, ya'll! This thing, the Kill the Green Arrow fic--woo-hoo! Look out world, she's dangerous!

Title: A Crooked Man
Fandom: SpN/Hellblazer
Pairings/Characters:Constantine
Rating:PG
Category:Gen
Word Count:592
Spoilers:Lazarus Rising? Vaguely. Very.
Summary: he's not quite a holy tax accountant. More like a morally ambiguous mage…
Notes/Warning There's no porn. Sorry. There could be some of the M/M variety, though. And with John, it's canon.


Tired. So tired of fighting. So…shit. Tired of failing, tired of…breathing. And still. And still, there's the need, to keep moving—stay alive.

He grubs a cigarette out of a crumbled pack, it's cock-eyed and dribbling tobacco but it's dry, and that's the important thing. Pressed between cracked lips, he sighs in relief, slumps to the floor and just. Sprawls. Done. A bright spear of pain makes him jerk, blood spreads between the fingers pressed over his stomach. The wound probably won’t kill him but it hurts like a fucker. What really ticks him off--broken fingers. That's just…shit. Cruel, that's what it is. Makes it hard to work the lighter. He flips the Zippo open, thumbs the wheel, thumbs the wheel, thumbs…the fucker won’t catch. He throws it and it skids through the pool of blood under the girl's head. The girl. The shell left behind when the demon fell again. He sighs. A nap would be good right now. Someone else taking the lead for a bit would be good right now….

He pats pockets, searching for matches with the good hand…always got a backup, never know. His head is pounding now. Fuck. He was pretty sure the wound was minor but his limbs are ice cold. Shock? Not even all that important. Not much. Not for the moment. He closes his eyes, takes a deep breath and there's a voice in his ear.

John.

"Fuck off."

John. We have heard your voice and answer your call. You have work to do.

John takes a breath and shifts the dry cigarette to the corner of his mouth.
"Got a light?"

Light?

"You know, a light, a fire, a—"

The end of his cigarette flames for a moment and goes out. John inhales deeply.
"Help? How?"

We require, ask for the use of your body--

"Fuck no!"

--and will protect you while you sleep. When you put yourself in our hands--

"What about 'fuck no' don’t you understand? No one's wearing me but me." He inhales again, and snorts. "No one wears me."

--you will be safe and unaware and do great things. We need you to help in this way. And it will count.

Shit. Shit. He shifts the butt from side to side, ash dribbling across his shirt and the burgundy stain grows and grows, and the cold inches up his legs. "I'm broken."

We'll fix it.

"Demons ride a mount to death, what about—"

We are not immune to anger.

"Okay, okay…maybe. Don't make me think about it just ye—"

Blackness, warm, clinging, he rolls to his side and smacks his lips and wants to scratch and wonders…this soft bed, this warm night….he stretches and there's nothing to stretch, he blinks to clear his sight and sight is all around him and nowhere. He can see before him and above him and behind him and there are no eyes to wipe, no hand to wipe them with and no ears to hear with but. He can hear. He's doing that now, and listening and he's pretty sure that his rider's unaware of that. He grins…takes a peek.
'Well, that's all right then. We'll have to get to know him. This might be…fun.' Do angels smoke?

It's odd to feel his mouth open and not want it to, to hear his voice and be unconnected to it, odd to have words form that he hasn't thought.

"I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition…."


11-14-2008
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2008-11-15 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, that?
That kicks my ass. That is fucking *awesome*, baybee. Totally, totally awesome.
*sits with chin on fists, gazing*

Fuck yes.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-15 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
*clings all over you* Omg, that's all I need to hear--if you think it's good than I'm floating, I swear! Thank you so much! This has been on my mind since I first saw that angel. How many of us were like wtf, Constantine! *G*
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2008-11-15 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
Heeeee!
I rather had that thought, too, but never would i have imagined *this*!

Tru fax, i luff.
:)

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-15 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
*beams*
*is content*

[identity profile] rednihilist.livejournal.com 2008-11-15 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
*SQUEESQUEESQUEE* Ohmygod,ohmyGOD!

Seriously, that was basically my reaction to reading that header. . . let alone the gorgeous writing you do! *Mwhaaaaa* Thank you so much for posting this!

This: He pats pockets, searching for matches with the good hand…always got a backup, never know made me nod, coz it's true. :)

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-15 03:11 pm (UTC)(link)
*does happy dance* Thank you! Wow, I didn't expect any comments on this at all so this is doubly happy-making! *BEAMS*

[identity profile] rednihilist.livejournal.com 2008-11-16 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
didn't expect any comments on this at all

Say WHA?! XD Seriously, why'd you think that? Coz, hon? You're a goddess 'round here, and I don't think I'm alone when I say I always read everything you write -- RL, quirky comments, and of course! your stories!!

*Mwhaaaa* Happy Saturday! :)
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happy roxy!

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-15 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, thank you! You made my morning!

[identity profile] jakrar.livejournal.com 2008-11-16 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
Great inspiration, beautifully written!

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-16 05:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh thank you so much! I love Constantine, and the idea that Castiel was using his body just made me snicker a lot. :)

By the way, that story we were working on, I still like it. I'd like to work on it again some day, if I can get this one that's eating all my mind right now out and finished.

[identity profile] jakrar.livejournal.com 2008-11-17 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
By the way, that story we were working on, I still like it. I'd like to work on it again some day, if I can get this one that's eating all my mind right now out and finished.

*flails with excitement*

[identity profile] sophiap.livejournal.com 2008-11-23 02:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, very nice. VERY nice.

And now I want to see a proper movie version of Hellblazer with Misha in the lead role, damn you.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-23 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you *so* much!

And yes, that was my evol plan, *G* He would make a damn fine Constantine.

[identity profile] selinamoonfire.livejournal.com 2008-11-23 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't believe I missed this when you posted it. I want you to finish your epic, but I also want more Castiel fic coz I love this. I love the feel of it.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-24 04:33 pm (UTC)(link)
oh, thanks a million! Yeah, sometimes a piece will really work--I manage to avoid all the things I usually do and bang out a good one. I still like this it! *G*

[identity profile] labseraph.livejournal.com 2008-11-24 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
OMG. I know Hellblazer peripherally but this take really is pretty awesome.

Sweet.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-24 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks so much! It's great to know it still works even if the reader's not up on Hellblazer. Thanks so much for reading and speaking of awesome--wow, your icon!

[identity profile] riddled.livejournal.com 2008-11-29 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
Bookmarking.

Bookmarking.



My inner Hellblazer fan just got all smug.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2008-11-29 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
*G*

There should be much more fic along this line, don't you think?

[identity profile] riddled.livejournal.com 2008-11-29 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, definitely. :D :D I mean, The Man Himself (i.e., Kripke) acknowledged the influence -- so dude, it's only fitting.


I can totally see him cameoing unnanounced in the show.

[identity profile] kesomon.livejournal.com 2009-04-09 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
Oh hells yes. Awesome crossover.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2009-04-09 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
Oh man, I can't tell you how thrilled I am to get a comment on this! Thanks so much for reading, and letting me know you liked it!