*sigh*

[roxy]

Today, I had a very messy, loud, and wet breakdown on the phone, calling out from work. It was truly disgusting, filled with lots of hyperventilating and some snot. This comes from trying to work through a labyrinth of shit that I created by not being on top of my dad's stuff. It really sucks that I can't point at someone else and blame them for all the crap that I'm swimming through. Besides, I've already cursed myself out more times than anyone else could.

I spent the major part of the day on the phone and there might be some progress and I might get out of this almost okay. But I'm not taking a breath until I know for sure. One bright spot--I got a lot of reading done while holding for everyone and their granny and the bank was very patient with my loud, soggy outburst. I guess this is going to take a very long time to fix, and in the meantime, I can't let it rule me but fuck, it's hard for it not to.

Thanks, I had to get that off my chest. Wow, and yesterday was so nice. I kind of knew I was going to pay for it today. Ach, well, tomorrow's another day, yes?

The icon says it all. ;)

Comments

[orbiting-saturn.livejournal.com]

Aw, bb! I'm sorry things are tough for you right now. Sometimes you just need to really let it out. ::hugs::

This must be messy breakdown week because yesterday I did the same thing after I got a gentle letdown letter for a job application. I've been unemployed for over a year now and that was the first time I really broke down since I got laid off.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

If we were together, we could have shattered windows for miles around...this is a really tough year for everyone, I hope it gets better. *kicks 2012*