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roxy ([personal profile] roxy) wrote2007-04-19 12:13 pm

writing, drawing, and drugs and sex...

We call that the hook. *grins*



You know, as glad as I am that I'm no longer contemplating suicide once a month, thanks to no longer taking Paxil(or as it's also known, the DEVIL) I confess, I miss the flip side. That scarily good good GOOD mood I'd be in for a couple of days after. Geez, I miss it. I miss writing and thinking "HOLY SHIT! I'm a fucking GENIUS!!!" So much more satisfying than, "Hot damn, I don't suck all that much!"

When I compare writing to drawing, I'm much more satisfied with what I've written than anything I've ever drawn. Weird that. In fact, I can't point to any drawing I've ever done and call it good. The most I can say is okay. Maybe the color worked, or the line, or a shadow--
On the other hand, there are a couple of stories I've written I think are pretty good,and one or two I think are damn good.
That's right, I said it. I feel stupid now, but I'm not taking it back.

So the other night, I had a dream about a girl with a penis!! I know it!! Normally, I'd be all ick. But this dream was so odd. In this dream, I was at dinner with the Fam and flirting with my waitperson (as usual--I always flirt with the waitperson) who happened to be a cute girl (she looked sort of like Aisha Tyler—who personally I like but not enough to kiss, so that was odd) and way too young but in the dream I was younger too. Ah, black hair. I remember you... anyhoo, I somehow ended up in the garden of this restaurant with her and we were kissing and goodness, it was such a nice kiss. It really lingered--you know how you can feel your lips all warm from it for hours? It was like that. Nice. And then she said, look, and I looked down and there--my word. What a surprise. Nice looking dick, though. Sadly, I had to refuse. Married, after all.

So ther ewe have it, Sex, drugs-sort of. No rock and roll. sorry. *G*

Re: Your writing

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2007-04-21 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
you know what, the next time I'm laying face down in the keyboard crying about how much I suck, I'll read this. Thanks so much for telling me this. I'm forever thinking that there's this tiny club of a few people who read my stories and neveryone else is here because I'm an entertaining goofball--but geez--I can't be that damn funny. *g*

You saying you've read my stories more than once makes me feel wonderful-I always re-read my favorite authors. About The Dog, man, I almost feel I should apologize to everyone who's ever read that fic. It hurt me to write that story, believe me.

Re: Your writing

[identity profile] jfc013.livejournal.com 2007-04-23 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I am adoring your Winchester stories, my dear. Don't EVER believe that you aren't any good! You are a wonderful writer! I'm getting antsy waiting for the next chapter! Never doubt your talent. You kick MAJOR ass!

Re: Your writing

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2007-04-23 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh! I just got home from the most horrible "bend over and grab your ankles and there'll be no lube" day at work and your comment made me absolutely float! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!