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I have 367 mutual friends. Most of these folks, I have no idea who they are, don't know if they've ever commented here, have no idea why they're here. Not that the no commenting bothers me, I'm terrible for that myself. Anyway, it's just a lot of folks. I think it's making me feel kind of nervous in a way. Like I have to be extra interesting. :) And speaking of that--oy! It *has* been boring around here lately! It's all whine whine here and boo-hoo there, with a smidge of story thrown in...*sigh* I guess it will take me a while to get used to not having my child here. It's not like this is the first time--she moved out to go to school and then moved back home...but her room is empty. Cleared out. So I walk past her door and don't look at it. Aaah, time will fix that. It's only been a week so I really shouldn't be so embarrassed about moping, but it is kind of embarrassing to be this drippy about it and people at work are making fun of me. Nice to know who's got your back...*g*

As far as wrting goes, I had some problems with a change of tone in East that didn't fit, so I'm working on that, geez, it seems like one word at a time. I should have been suspicious when suddenly it was just writing itself. Un-hunh. *eyeballs story*. It was weird, I didn't even notice until I began checking for typos. Does this ever happen to anyone else? It's almost like automatic writing (is that what it's called?).

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I don't how you keep track with 367 friends. I have around 40 and I still want to defriend a few, because I never talk to them...

Another pretty rose icon! Awesome. I can't choose which one I like best really.

It's impossible, really. Most folks never say anything, so that's not bad. I must admit, it takes me longer and longer to read the day's posts when I get home. I feel horribly guilty defriending. I usually only defriend folks who have left LJ or who make it plain that whatever reason I friended them for no longer exists. I almost always keep folks who stopped writing SV or fanfic in general because most of them still have lots of interesting things to say--just about different things.

Another pretty rose icon!Thank you! The one I'm using now is a favorite of mine, Hero made it.

eta: and oops--I meant to use this one! *G*

Edited 2008-07-06 08:56 (UTC)

I feel guilty defriending people too, so sometimes I'm relieved when certain people defriend me first. Hero did a defriending poll, but I don't if that works: if people stoppped reading said journal, will they bother answering the poll? *shrugs*

I remember seeing that icon, but I didn't know Hero made it. It's really beautiful.

Yes, occasionally it does. I'll start writing and then suddenly it's a couple of hours later and I've got a bunch of pages written that I don't really consciously recall planning and getting down on paper. As a rule, those tend to be the best stuff I write.

It's almost freaky! And yeah, a lot of time those are really good pages. In fact, I did like what I wrote, I just refused to let my subconscious hi-jack me--this time around. *g*

Hey, who's that guy in your icon trying to cozy up to you?

snickersnicker

Ah, but maybe your subconscious knows something you don't! *g*

Hah! As you should well know it is The Hewlett! aka Rodney McKay! *sticks tongue out at you*

oh yeah--*that* guy.

*runs and hides, snickering all the way*

*smacks LJ*
That was me. :)

Hee, think I figured that one out! *g*

And you won't be laughing when I add Michael to my stable in September!! ;-)

*hangs head*
go ahead, rub it in.....

Oooh, was that an invitation?

Right about now I could use some automatic writing. *frown*

The kid thing is tough. You may have the advantage with her all the way out. Mine is still here in a lot of ways with her room still looking like she's in the middle of packing and her 'stuff' scattered throguh the house. You have my sympathy *hugs*

Thanks, my dear. I'm just going to have to do that stiff upper lip thing. *snorf* Yeah, like I'm so good at that...*G*

*pets you*

Hey! I Clexed! Go cheer up! :-D

OOoooo! You did? All right!!!

yes, it's hard when they move out. my son moved out to school, then moved back in, then moved out again. now he's in seattle. i miss him so much, and with ted fixin' to move to the dorm in about 6 weeks, it may be basket-case time in the fall. i love to mother people. :/

my writing is almost all automatic. by which i mean, if it's hard to do, i don't do it. lazy, shiftless me. my nano projects are never edited. i just blurt them out, and the smaller pieces i do are always on impulse. so i salute you for soldiering on when you're not feeling the mojo! (i hope you let us read most of the automatic stuff that was easy.)

i hope you let us read most of the automatic stuff that was easy.)

I'm going to reshape that stuff a bit and use it in the Whit/Jason& Clark story--the tone suits that fic pretty good. I've thrown my hands up and let go of the funny story it was supposed to be, hah! Besides, isn't it time for another angst fest here anyway? *G*

Yeah, I've been reading about you and your sons and keeping kind of mum, because I am not the one you want commenting right now, lol! I don't think you need a response made mostly of whine and woe is me. Lately you and I are kind of joined at the hip, mentally. *G*

aw, you can come whine in my journal any time! i'd be glad to sympathize, empathize, or both.

yeah, your angst fests keep us hangin' on. ;)

*hugs* I'm getting a lump in my throat just thinking about my child leaving to go into the world.

Oh my dear, I know, I know! The truth? I've been dreading this day since the first day of kindergarten!

On the writing thing, I had about three new chapters of Teenage written, right? And after I'd finished, I was all stoked. I'm like, "This is great stuff here, Arielle! They're gonna love this!" So what's the problem? I go back to revise these three wonderful chapters and find out that they're all written in the present tense. Now, I never write in the present tense, never. Nothing I've posted on Lj or even during my 4 years of college was ever in the present tense. Where the heck did these chapters come from? And, I mean, these were really good chapters, too! So, I end up having to comb through every sentence in search of typos and mistakes, and it. . . kinda ruined them, these brilliant new sections.

So what does this have to do with you? Well, it's just meant to say I'm so totally there with you, roxy! *shuffles feet*

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Wow, now I know how people feel when they tell me "but post it anyway!"

That's so bizarre though. Do you think maybe a story is lurking in there, wanting to be written that way? Hmmm...

*hug* and thank you for understanding! :)

You are never boring.

Sometimes when I'm writing I get a few paragraphs in one direction and then I'm like "Where the hell do I think I'm going with this? 'Cause it's nowhere..."

But I don't usually do super long, involved stories like you do, so it's a little different.

Awwwww! *feels pretty damn good*

Yeah, the longer the story, the more chances to fuck up in a major way, or have your outline blow up right before your eyes, lol!

Oh yeah. That's when the muse takes over! :) I was on autopilot yesterday for the last scene of my gender-swap fic.

And 367 mutual friends? You iz popular, Miss Roxy! :)

And I promise, I'm going to read East; I'm waiting for my three-week break from work/school that starts August 1st. It looks really great so far!

It's okay when the muses take over, as long as they're not those crack smoking, pawn your TV, and wear your underwear as hats kind of muses.

You iz popular, Miss Roxy!

Weeeeell, popular, or maybe like a big comfortable busstop? *g*

Ah, East! Trust me, it'll be here when you're ready, lol! It's beginning to feel like it'll be here forever!

*snuggles*
It's okay to miss her! You just smack those work fools upside the head. Sheesh.
*pet pet pet*

LJ *has* been rather dull, lately. Too much wank, not enough fic!
:)

*snuggles back* that's 'cause you like me! :)

LJ *has* been rather dull, lately. Too much wank, not enough fic!

I know, right? I mean, summer is usually the season of the wank, but is it me or is it totally crazy this year? And SpN--hokey smokes! It's like they're out to take the Crown Of Wank...*shakes head* And this is why I'm always be waving from the fringes. ;)

Man, i know. Insanity. I'm totally avoiding the SPN wank, it's just *too much*.
*pets the pretty boys*

I guess maybe I work a bit differently than a lot of people do.. I don't outline.

Well, not really. I have a general idea of where I'm going, at least I always know how the story is going to end, but when my muse takes me into areas I hadn't planned on it usually works out.

And I say usually, because sometimes it doesn't... it's that one Superman/Batman that has gotten completely out of control that I am not sure now if I am ever going to finish it. I've restarted it again for like the fifth time and it's still got a mind of its own.

*pouts*

I'm going to work on something different (something happier) for the next few days and see how that goes...

I wish I had advice to give for your daughter finally leaving...

My kids are younger, only 15 and 13, but that day is coming. I don't know what I'll do when they both finally leave...

*HUGS*

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I love outlines--I have two or three for each story, lol! It's terrible when you come down to the wire and realize the end you planned isn't going to work but you have nothing to replace it--hello Transference....I swear, that one bugs me more that any other. But I took almost a year I think, to finish Dis Pater, so I hope it's coming some day.

I always think writing Superman/Batman has to be so hard. It's such a different fandom, with so many conflicting versions of the same characters--or so it seems to me. You've got all those different comic versions, and on top of that you have the movie canon--wow. How does that work?

Oh, that part of it is hard.

I had tried to sorta have it be a Smallville/Batman Begins crossover, then they were having a challenge based on the Superman/Batman annual #2 where Clark loses his powers and trains with Bruce so he can still help Metropolis.

Bruce is a bit hard on Clark. I reread that and I thought maybe I should base the story on that version of clark and bruce, it helped some, but still it's not going anwhere. So I'm coming back home to Smallville and working on a few Clex that I've got.

A happier future-fic than Strange and Beautiful and the next update for Superman for Sale.

Maybe if I give it some time, it'll still work out.

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I try to comment as much as I can at lj's so my friends know I'm still around. I haven't started reading your new story yet because my wireless has been in and out.

*hugs* it's always a pleasure when I see a comment from you!

I only have 104 mutual friends and sometimes have trouble keeping up with all of them. I don't know how you do it with over 300.

If it was for not wanting to leave my mom and dad, I'd offere to stay with you for a bit till you get 'used' to BG not being there. THough... that may also defeat the purpose too. *shrugs* Ah well... it was a thought. ;) *hugs*

I think I jinx you with your stories because it seems like the ones I really can't wait to read more of (not that I don't want to read more of all your stories) are the ones that don't cooperate. :( *glares at evol stories*

Are you kidding? Who keeps up with that many people? Really, most of the people never update their journals, some are into stuff that I have nooooooo idea about, some I only read and don't talk to, and a few I need like breathing. ;)

Man, if you were living here, you'd be screaming, "leave me alone, I don't *want* to hear about your crummy story anymore!!" Mr. Roxy would have to protect you. :)

Oh-ho!! Stop cursing me!! But finally I think I have the Clex bit done--maybe you can tell me if it's right or not?

Lol! Well, I'm thinking of posting the new story now on IJ, and keep it there until I'm all done, along with the SpN one. I know, I know, no SpN...but it's got Angel in it? Ah? Ah?

*G*

hehehe If you're that bad, I think Mr. Roxy would welcome someone to take the focus off of him.

*gives puppy eyes* Sorry! Don't mean to curse you. *sniffs* But I'd be more than happy to read what you've got done. :D

Ummm... not into Angel either. Tried watching that and Buffy a few times, but just couldn't get over the Vampire faces. :(

But I still love you! :D

I may have to fly to Jersey and kick the asses of those people you work with at Tarhell. Just give me the word. ((hugs))

Oh girl, I'm cleaning out the guest room now!

Really, I think it's just that they can't believe that I'm honestly emotional over this. They tend to think of me as a slightly(just slightly mind you) heartless bitch. Not like my LJ friends, who know for all the growling and yapping, I'm made of pudding.

It's been a long time since anything was the automatic writing type of thing for me. Normally, I love it when it happens. It means that the characters have finally gelled and found their voices and they know what to do.

Though, for the past few months, every project has been painfully slow. Grr!

Yes, right now, I'm definitely in the painfully slow part of writing. Every time I think it's ready to go, I see something I don't like. At this rate I'll be posting the next bit for Christmas.

I know that feeling well. I STILL haven't finished hils' Christmas present. You think she'd mind if it was for this Christmas? LOL

Yeah, sometimes the automatic writing is great, others... Well, let me just say that one time, Lex and Clark almost broke up during REVERSAL because I let them take over. NO! :P

I really would like to trim my f-list but that the same time, I think of making an Amnesty Friending Week, where I'd just friend whoever asked me without suspecting them.

Hmmmm...

Oh, yeah, I know friends issues are definitely different for you. I basically friend anyone back who friends me, but I tend not to interact as freely as I used to. There are people I really like, but I find myself holding back, thanks to that whole mess.

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