dear My Friends...

[roxy]

Sadly, Target has forgotten I work for them, so I'm barely getting my phone paid, oy. Thank god I am a kept woman, and do not have to worry where my next meal and fatty snacks are coming from.

Also, I take my broken wings and learn to fly or some such shit--I've finally decided to drop all the challenges I'd signed up for. I feel free, and would celebrate this more, except for the nagging feeling of failure. I had to let those things go--this is supposed to be fun, and those challenges were not feeling like fun, they were feeling like a job, a job even more underpaid than my actual job. I'll work on them all, including PE which I'm going to have to rewrite omg, that motherfucker broke down into some boring ass shit. Now that I have time, I can rewrite it to be closer to what I'd originally imagined, and also, since it won't be posted at large, I can make that shit as sick as I want.

Wish me luck with Non Timebo Mala, because that's going to be my focus for the next month.

I love you guys, you're the most patient people ever. You listen(read?) to the same thing over and over, and yet, you're still supportive, still nice, still with the jokes and hugs. Without you, I'd just be a bitter old woman scribbling on napkins, instead of a bitter old woman posting porn on my LJ, hoarding comments like gold.

Snuggle up my friends--it's group hug time!!! And just so this shouldn't be a total loss--a pretty boy in bed. :)

Comments

[me-ya-ri.livejournal.com]

Oooooo, two pretty boys in bed! 8D

Hmm, sorry, did you say something? I'm too busy oggling the pretty boys. *grins and giggles*

Good for you for making the choice to write just what you want when you want it! I keep swearing that I'll do that but then the next shiny challenge comes along and I tell myself that I can do it no problem. *groans* I really should know better but I keep doing it.

Good luck with the writing!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

LOL!!! I'm glad to make your eyes happy!

I wanted to do this BB the worst way, but I was just not making things happen and other stories popped up into my head and it frustrated me that I couldn't work on them, and then I thought--there are over 600 entries into the SPNBB--does it matter if I drop out? Hell to the no. ;)

[rednihilist.livejournal.com]

First, not only a very pretty boy (oh, Eric, where are you these days?!), but a very pretty boy snuggling with another boy? Mmmmmrrrrroowwww! Thanks for the pick-me-up, hon! Heh. *feels naughty*

Second, *le sigh* I'm kinda glad you dropped it, to be blunt. I could tell you were worrying about it too of teh muchly, and that? That does not a good story make. Plus, like you said: now we get all the freaky shit you might have kept out! Hot damn!

I will say it again, even though everyone and their dog is probably sick of it: if you need help or a second opinion or just to vent/gossip/fangirl!squee, lemme know! I'm online a ridiculous amount of time (heh. rhyme-y) cos I have no life. Seriously.

Cheers, hon! I'm all for porn-y roxy, as opposed to scary!glar-y roxy. *shivers* XD

*HUG*


ETA: YAY FOR NTM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck yeah!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Second, *le sigh* I'm kinda glad you dropped it, to be blunt.

Oh, man, thank you, thank you, *thank you* for that!!!! thanks for getting that! I feel like I have permission now, and I'm kind of that way here *and* in RL, I need to be told it's okay or I keep slogging away, way past the time I should.

*CLINGS* That was like getting chocolates and hugs and kisses!

[rednihilist.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm that way, too, sometimes. We all are around here. And, who was it last year who I complained and whined to about SV BB? Well, you and twins, but you pretty much told me the same thing I'm tellin' you now, hon: if you dread working on the thing, you're never ever gonna be happy with it. You gotta love the Fic, and if that means ripping its guts out and rebuilding it from scratch then. . . well, then you'll (hopefully) love it after all that. Or else you'll do it again. Or whatever. Yeah, maybe not such a good metaphor.

Uh? What was I saying? Oh, yeah. Good for you, hon! Take a breather. Read some fic. We're all in it for the long haul. Don't worry 'bout us. (Write me some NTM, bitch!) We loyal readers will just have to be content with other authors until you once again bless us with your prose.

:) Turn that unsure frown upside down!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*SHMISH*

love yoooooooo!!!!

[garryowen.livejournal.com]

Oh, Roxy. Those folks at Target know not what they have, standing at that loud, beepy register, day after day.

Those boys look young enough to be my children! Okay, maybe not. Or maybe if I had been a really slutty teenager. Like, really, really slutty.

:)

Really slutty.

I commend you on dropping all your challenges. Who needs stress? Fandom should be gay and happy.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGS* Thank you, my darling just so you know, that's Eric Johnson and it's perfectly okay to perv on him, he's in your age bracket. ;)

[danceswithgary]

Smart move. Always choose the fun, not the stress. *hugs*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Mind you, I'll still be coming after you with the Silver John thing...I'd like it to be the best it can be. *HUG* and thanks so much!

[tasabian.livejournal.com]

Yay, Whitney before he was Whitney! What a sexy l'il twink.

You mustn't feel badly for dropping out of challenges - you work hard enough by day; fandom's gotta be fun, not more work!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I tell myself that. *nods*

Maybe to celebrate, I should write a little Whit...*G*

[nataliadarimini.livejournal.com]

I prefer a happy and sane Roxy any day of the week, so I'm going to give this:

(http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v450/nataliadarimini/?action=view&current=seal-of-approval.jpg)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*gigglegigglegigglegiggle*

Thank you, seal!! :)

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

Happy Easter, roxy! oooh! pretty boys! :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*MMMMMMMMMHUGHUGHUG*!!!!Thank you, lovey! You too! :)

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

roxy, I just looked at my userinfo page for the first time in a couple of months, and I discovered your virtual gifts! Thank you so much! I didn't get notifications for them--didn't we used to get emails? Anyway, I love them and I love you! {{{hugs}}} I remember getting the hug coupon, but there are some flowers and a heart there as well! :)

[rosy5000.livejournal.com]

Pretty boys in bed is never bad. Especially a naked Eric in bed. ;) What's that pic from?

Sorry your story challenges didn't work out, but the important thing is that you enjoy what you're writing. And I'd still love you even if you only ever posted personal or silly posts and no more fic (but the fic's good too).

*snuggle hugs* ♥

*sits back and drools over stares at Eric*

[silsbee329.livejournal.com]

Sometimes those challenges do feel like a job. Where's the fun?? You did the right thing. *squeezes into the group hug* ... *ogles boys*

[tabaqui]

*smishes you*
Sometimes, you just gotta say no, bay-bee, and that's okay.
*luffs you like crazy*

I hope you had a good bunny day! I was with my mom, hangin' out and doing nothing. It was awesome. :)
*smooch*

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Happy Easter!

I'm glad that you're feeling better about your writing. I know it sucks to not finish a challenge but if the story isn't the one you want to write or if you're just not happy with the process, there's no point in keeping up with the challenge.

Wow...how did I remember to say all that with that pic there to stare at?

[myownghost.livejournal.com]

>Also, I take my broken wings and learn to fly or some such shit

that made me laugh out loud. (i do not LOL.) glad you've let go of burdensome writing. life's too short, etc. etc.

belated easter wishes to you!