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roxy ([personal profile] roxy) wrote2005-03-20 12:07 am

Behold! I Am An Idiot!

Yes, yes I am... I'm always getting caught, pulled in by ideas I can hardly write, great big sticky traps that suck me in and take over my brain, and every time I get an idea, something I really want to write, I get so depressed and upset. It's the same as when I finish a story. I get horribly depressed and for the next couple of days, I know I'm the worst, suckiest fanfic writer in the whole world. I even snivel and swear never to embarrass my self like that again...amd then I get over it, and sometimes when I reread the stuff I think it's pretty not too bad!

It's just as bad when I get an idea--I suffer through the "you stink on ice"'s and wander around the house sniveling and flagellating myself, (strictly figuratively, mind you. I'm very sensitive to owies.)

so all this is leading up to this idea I have which I've talked about here already. Should I? Should I not? It's already telling me it's big, and I haven't finished SS and *let* me tell you about that bitch!--I know how it's ending--I talked about that too, but will it let me end? No!

It's stuck on Whit and Sam, and purely pointless everyday stuff and when I try to pull it around to graduation, it balks like a mule.

Arrrrrr!!! I hate leaving stuff unfinished! I won't--as Bob is my witless, I won't--but in the mean time this...other thing whispers to me...come on it says, don't you want to write a story about lots of angry sex, and jealousy and angst and a dash of incest? Hmmm? Also, here's the truly scary parts, it wants to follow canon! I know it!! ME! can you believe it? Me either--can I do it? Hah! Not bloody likely! But I think I'm gonna try. What the hell, if it stinks, you'll tell me, we're all friends here right?

Remember...I have the cookies...

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
*pounces and snuggles and casually mentions you are on my Recs page, fool... which means I like your stuff*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
I am ??? I am!!! *Hugshugshugs!* wow, my name is there with all these excellent excellent writers! I feel all thrilled! :)

I am a fool aren't I? *knows not to say you're just being nice because I'm just a weensy itsy bit scared of you, grin*

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
*grins wolfishly* Are you now?

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:57 am (UTC)(link)
just enough to make it interesting, yas....

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
Wouldn't want to be dull. *sidles closer* Woudl I? Being dull would be... far less fun than *bites* being interesting.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
Why, no, blearr fnourl flah? Er? *freezes , melts*

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
Mmm, Miss Rose, are we talking with our mouth full again? Naughty. *grins, side-eyes*

ETA: The typo fairy loves me far too much.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
*nibbles* Sorry? I was distracted. *smirk*

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:20 am (UTC)(link)
So I see. *nuzzles closer and licks in lazy circles* See if you can guess what I'm saying on you here. *snickers a little*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
Sorry, didn't catch it, could you repeat that please?

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
*snickers and licks it out again, fingertip writes it all over your back for good measure*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
Ahhhh! I see...yes, it's so much clearer to me now...*purrs*

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
*grins and smooches* Good. You are a great writer. Don't forget it, or I'll tattoo it on your ass and swat you on the reminder when you need it.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
Wnoo-hoo! *hugs you so hard* I love you.

[identity profile] thecaelum.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
*grunts a little and hugs back* Air... good... thing.... *snickers and smooches* Love you too, pretty lady.

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
::brings out puppy eyes:: ... ::aims them at you:: You promised more Spandery goodness for 2005. ::tries out anime tear-filled look:: Don't you wuv us anymore? ::pout::

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
oy.. I know! I know! I swear, I haven't forgotten, I promise!

I've got Oscar Wilde staring at me from the corner of the room arm in arm with a very disgusted Mr. TherBloody glaring at me, sigh.

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
::sniffle:: You could maybe write a Discworld crossover. Mr TheBloody would feel better after that. ::tries for innocent:: Have a Xander for inspiration ::grin::

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
Tsk! did we not speak about this? Did I not say you were perfect for the Discworld thingy?

I'm going to have to read the Hogfather again....

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
But I have other plotbunnies ::whine:: They won't leave me alone!

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:33 am (UTC)(link)
But surely you have room for just a wafer thin mint-- I mean--tiny little ficlet....

look, look at those big ...well, empty eyesockets, but they do have a woobie-like quality don't they? Hmmmm?

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
::pout:: You just know I already have a scene in my head don't you? One where Jessica Harris is Susan StoHelit's sister and she run off to an alternate dimension because she didn't wanna be related to Death and she only had Xander cause it took her out of the running. Cause Death can't bring life forth from his loins or whatever so once she had him she was free.

And Xander thinks his Aunt Susan moved to Europe or whatever and now she's back and she's asking if anything weirder than usual happened and she tells him she knows about the Hellmouth and why isn't he sleeping with Spike yet? And Xander freaks out cause he remembers her telling him that before she did and he accidentally uses THE VOICE and holly shit he's Death's great-grandkid!

::pout:: I'm gonna have to write this aren't I?

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
YES!!!! oh! heh--I mean...well,only if you think you should, dear, I'm not one to be pushy.

*rubs hands together evoly, cackling with glee*
I'm getting Disc World--BtVS x-over, how great is that!!

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-23 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Bossy? You?! NAH! You'll get your fic oh evil one. But I dunno when. Cause...bunnies!

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-24 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
Okay--I'll be patient.


Is it done yet?

Is it done now?

How 'bout now?

Now?

now?

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-25 10:43 am (UTC)(link)
::raises eyebrow:: You keep asking and I'll just keep schtum even when it's finished. I'll keep it for months and months and only post it when you stop asking. ::evil snicker::

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-25 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
*goggle* okay! okay! Not another word, not another peep!

peep?

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-26 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
::raises eyebrow:: Did you just peep?

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-26 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Ummm...nooooooo...not me. Nope. *looks innocent*

[identity profile] suzvoy.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 09:52 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs*

I can't write!

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Good lord, what do you mean you can't write? As in, too busy or in horrible blockage? pets you and hugs you and brings you toasty warm chocolate chip cookies*

[identity profile] suzvoy.livejournal.com 2005-03-20 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
It's just no ideas sparking off in my head. *pokes brain*
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2005-03-20 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Dude!
Ummmmmm.
I have NO CLUE what you said up there.
*points*

Just - whatever you're writing?? WRITE NOW!!
WRITE IT ALL!!
I don't care what you meander on about - i wanna knoooooooooooow!!!

*bounce*
Discworld x-over??
Dear gods, i love you.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-21 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
Nash is gonna write it! She caved--whoo-hoo!
And I'm writing right now! Nothing I'm supposedd to but I'm writing. *grin*

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2005-03-21 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
Erf--spellcheck, please!
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2005-03-21 07:23 am (UTC)(link)
Whooohooo!!!
Duuuuuuude!!
That rocks.


And go, Nash!!

[identity profile] nashmaveric.livejournal.com 2005-03-25 11:57 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I'm the energizer bunny! ::snicker::