Behold! I Am An Idiot!

[roxy]

Yes, yes I am... I'm always getting caught, pulled in by ideas I can hardly write, great big sticky traps that suck me in and take over my brain, and every time I get an idea, something I really want to write, I get so depressed and upset. It's the same as when I finish a story. I get horribly depressed and for the next couple of days, I know I'm the worst, suckiest fanfic writer in the whole world. I even snivel and swear never to embarrass my self like that again...amd then I get over it, and sometimes when I reread the stuff I think it's pretty not too bad!

It's just as bad when I get an idea--I suffer through the "you stink on ice"'s and wander around the house sniveling and flagellating myself, (strictly figuratively, mind you. I'm very sensitive to owies.)

so all this is leading up to this idea I have which I've talked about here already. Should I? Should I not? It's already telling me it's big, and I haven't finished SS and *let* me tell you about that bitch!--I know how it's ending--I talked about that too, but will it let me end? No!

It's stuck on Whit and Sam, and purely pointless everyday stuff and when I try to pull it around to graduation, it balks like a mule.

Arrrrrr!!! I hate leaving stuff unfinished! I won't--as Bob is my witless, I won't--but in the mean time this...other thing whispers to me...come on it says, don't you want to write a story about lots of angry sex, and jealousy and angst and a dash of incest? Hmmm? Also, here's the truly scary parts, it wants to follow canon! I know it!! ME! can you believe it? Me either--can I do it? Hah! Not bloody likely! But I think I'm gonna try. What the hell, if it stinks, you'll tell me, we're all friends here right?

Remember...I have the cookies...

Comments

[nashmaveric.livejournal.com]

But I have other plotbunnies ::whine:: They won't leave me alone!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

But surely you have room for just a wafer thin mint-- I mean--tiny little ficlet....

look, look at those big ...well, empty eyesockets, but they do have a woobie-like quality don't they? Hmmmm?

[nashmaveric.livejournal.com]

::pout:: You just know I already have a scene in my head don't you? One where Jessica Harris is Susan StoHelit's sister and she run off to an alternate dimension because she didn't wanna be related to Death and she only had Xander cause it took her out of the running. Cause Death can't bring life forth from his loins or whatever so once she had him she was free.

And Xander thinks his Aunt Susan moved to Europe or whatever and now she's back and she's asking if anything weirder than usual happened and she tells him she knows about the Hellmouth and why isn't he sleeping with Spike yet? And Xander freaks out cause he remembers her telling him that before she did and he accidentally uses THE VOICE and holly shit he's Death's great-grandkid!

::pout:: I'm gonna have to write this aren't I?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

YES!!!! oh! heh--I mean...well,only if you think you should, dear, I'm not one to be pushy.

*rubs hands together evoly, cackling with glee*
I'm getting Disc World--BtVS x-over, how great is that!!

[nashmaveric.livejournal.com]

Bossy? You?! NAH! You'll get your fic oh evil one. But I dunno when. Cause...bunnies!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Okay--I'll be patient.


Is it done yet?

Is it done now?

How 'bout now?

Now?

now?

[nashmaveric.livejournal.com]

::raises eyebrow:: You keep asking and I'll just keep schtum even when it's finished. I'll keep it for months and months and only post it when you stop asking. ::evil snicker::

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*goggle* okay! okay! Not another word, not another peep!

peep?

[nashmaveric.livejournal.com]

::raises eyebrow:: Did you just peep?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ummm...nooooooo...not me. Nope. *looks innocent*