oh my.

[roxy]

I can't concentrate. I want to read, but I want to write, so I keep bouncing back between reading and writing and not really doing either. Why is it so hard to settle on one thing?

I'm just stuck in a rut. I don't even feel like myself, I feel like I'm playing a character named me, and it's a really boring role, for godssake. I don't know what I want. I'm working hard on my story but I'm worried that it's boring. I'm trying very hard to make it interesting but I've never been very good at writing action. I've got most of Dean's solo part of the fic done so I've been obsessively going over it and over it. Not quite to the point that it becomes sort of writerly masturbation--each pass through does make it better. I'm just not sure yet. And Dean's a bit of a slut because I like writing him that way. That's my MO, right? It's just, people have a lot of sex. I just can't write a character sitting around waiting for true love to happen. How often does that happen, right?

All right, enough whining. Let me share my latest obsession with you. See this boy right here?

I will beat a motherfucker to death if they try to change the channel when his commercial is on.

Because of this.


And also, this.


yes, lord be still my ancient, wrinkly little heart. Shit like that will set a hot flash off like a mufucking rocket.