my sister

[roxy]

I want to spare my niece if she's reading my journal today.


I'm feeling a little bit wired today. My sister had a bad night, which meant aggressive behavior and lots of crying--bits and pieces of her memories that weren't meshing with what's happening now, and lots of confusion. When she gets confused, she gets upset of course. The people at the group home she lives can’t handle that. I guess they aren’t trained to. For most of them, this is a part time job. They aren't ready to deal with a very upset, very aggressive person. I don’t know why they won't call me when this happens. I've told them, my sister’s husband has told them again and again, to call me when she gets violent. I'm too far away to run out and get her, but a lot of time she'll calm down at least enough to talk to other people when she talks to me. It’s too awful when this happens. She sounds so much like her old self at first, laughing and joking, all sarcastic and fun, and it’s great but I’m wincing too, because I know that it won’t be long before it’s all so much misery and sadness.

Her husband called me and told me to call and ‘work my magic’ on her. Fucking asshole. He really thinks I have some kind of magical control over her. Jesus, what an asswipe. It’s hard. I told him last night, that while I still thought he was a fucking dog’s penis (I was a leeeetle nicer than that) that I was glad he stuck it out and took care of her. He does. I don’t know what his motivation is but I don’t care. He does a good job of meeting her medical needs. That’s just one more thing I don’t have to worry about. All I need to handle are the girls and my pop.

It sucks what happened to her, and that my niece lost her mother. It sucks almighty.


In good news, Mr. Roxy’s foot is a-okay. He’s a little sore but not too bad. The tech that did the procedure was a tiny little guy, he looked funny holding this giant foot.
I love Mr. Roxy.

Comments

Your ex-RTW team lead

[(Anonymous)]

I'm going to do my best to cheer you a teeny smidgen in 3 simple steps.

1. I found that tattoo book I borrowed from you ages ago (my mother had it hidden in her black hole of a computer desk).
2. My family is moving to your town NEXT WEEKEND!
3. I'm a godmother! Isn't she beautiful? http://i146.photobucket.com/albums/r280/NoWay226/100_0018.jpg

I miss you and think about you often. Email me sometime. We'll have coffee and be evil together. I need a mentor. lethal_lemon_chic@yahoo.com

Re: Your ex-RTW team lead

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Hey sweetie-pie!!! Wow, how nice to hear from you! I miss you too! And yes, we should definitely get together for coffee! (why, you can bring methe book! *G*)

MMMMMWAAAH!! *HUGS*

[ender24]

*dips you harder than usual*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*happy sigh*

*feels the love*

[jakrar.livejournal.com]

I am truly sorry to hear about your sister; I can't even imagine the sorrow and stress this must put on you and your whole family. *hugs you* I mm glad, though, that you have Mr. Roxy to lean on when you need to, and that your niece has you both. And you can vent on livejournal, if it helps!

[jakrar.livejournal.com]

That 'mm' was meant to be an 'am.' Clearly, I cannot type today. *hangs head*

[beet]

I'm sorry for this. There is nothing to say to make it easier for you, however much I wish I could. Hold on to love.

{{{holds you tight}}}

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Hey, love, sorry to get back to you so late. Thank you so much for the hugs and wishes. My Beloved Niece really keeps my brain together. She's such an incredible person, and we all depend on her as much as she depends on us. She's like cool doubled and tripled, that one is. *shmooch* Thanks for caring, dear heart.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*hugs you back* I love you too, kiddo.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Without you guys, I'd be truly lost. Thank you so much, love!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

We are like that--*points at icon* and your words make my heart feel lighter. I know you're here. *hughug*

[miche-connor.livejournal.com]

It's so hard when someone you love has a bad day, or week or some other even longer period of time, and there's just not a lot you can do except be there. And you are, and I am so very glad for her that you are, Roxy. Bless you both and Mr. Roxy too.

*HUGS*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

thank you, beloved--*hug* thank you so much.

Roxy sister

[smilingirlblue.livejournal.com]

Roxy, sorry finally to reappear on the LJ and find you in such misery (though happy to hear about Mr R's foot.) Write when you can about it--it eventually does make life better, and you will be able to use it like a potter does clay. Use all of your life, not just the happy times. (Duh, all happy stories would just be boring. Real life, though, seems different, maybe really IS different.) Anyway, like the Pres (the one who really got elected), "I feel your pain." Mama Blue
P.S. Maybe your brother=in-law is stumbling and fumbling to acknowledge you.

Re: Roxy sister

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Oh! I did a double take when I saw your name! How great to see you here!

Oh my dear, I mine my inner landscape in a shameful way, trust me. I'm horrible about using my life--in fact, I should use the happy times...*smile*

She's been quiet lately, and seems content. We're driving up to bring her home for the weekend, so that will be--well exhausting, but nice too, I'm hoping.

Ah, my brother-in-law. All my sister's friends and I call him Satan. Believe me when I tell you, it's not really an exaggeration.

Thank you love, for visiting! *hug* what a pleasure!