feeling sorry for myself, whining, blabbing, stuff like that

[roxy]

So, that time's rolled around again, when I'm all weepy and oy, woe is me, the world's unfair, everybody hates me, my pants are too tight, my chins are too many, what am I here for...well, that one I know--I'm here for the porn--but in the greater scheme of things, why me? And of course, since I'm a miserable bitch, I have to make my beloved's life miserable too, until he finally throws up his hands and wants to know what the heck is wrong with me? I just know one of these days he's going to have had enough and just walk away, just leave. (here's the part where I throw myself into a corner and sob all broken hearted) Yeah, you know what's really stupid and self-involved and stupid and pathetic about that? After 30 years, if he hasn't left me (or smothered me in my sleep, i can be *such* a god-awful bitch, just ask the children) more than likely he's just gonna ride this thing out until the final chapter. BUT IT FEELS LIKE IT MIGHT HAPPEN and I'm really feeling sorry for myself.

There. Now that I've typed all that out, I feel kind of better, thank you.

In a dizzying and complete change of subject, I'm thinking about posting all my old SV all cleaned up and shiny new over at my DW place. I've always hated the way my stuff looks at SSA, and folks keep having problems with it. Who knows, maybe some day someone will be looking for SV stuff to read and find my DWj and be all excited about the SV. It was so much fun when I first came into fandom and stumbled over stuff here and there--it was like finding gold! I've already started to post some stuff there, SpN and SV, with pretty pickchus. :) Also, it lets me feel like I'm doing something fannish. I have this problem though, with reading the stuff as I'm going along. Ha! Some of it's a good read--and some of it, omg. *hides face*

In case you want to see, my user name there is Roxy. I know, right? So bold, so creative!
So! Enough rambling. Whoever made it this far--you're the shizzle! High five, friend!*HUGHUG*

Comments

[valentinemichel.livejournal.com]

Ms. Roxy, we all have moments when we feel like we're not enough - good enough, smart enough, thin enough. If we're lucky, we have friends and loved ones around who can prop us back up when we sag.

*props you up*

There. If it gets uncomfortable, let me know. ;)

*tight hugs*

[toldthestars.livejournal.com]

Cheer up, little Johnny! Otherwise we'll have to give you the smile pills again!

But Daddy, I don't want--

Then I suggest you cheer the hell up in a god damn jiff. Now, go make Daddy another highball. And do it without crying--your tears dilute the booze.



Yeah, I dunno either. :D If you feel bad for Uncle Roxy, maybe you could do something unexpectedly nice for him. Just, for the love of God, don't tell me what the nice thing is.

[luvmax1.livejournal.com]

Some days, life just sucks. But you're a tough cookie, Roxy, with a unique sense of humor. I think you'll be okay. *High fives, then hugs you*

[latxcvi.livejournal.com]

Silly Roxy, you are here for me to nub you!

*snuggles*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

YOU'RE THE BEST MISS...BETH...Mnnbebblemn....thingy. *BEAMS* heck yeah!!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGS* THANK YOU!

I'm still a little grumpy, but not the kind of grumpy where we write emo notes and hide them under the placemats and contemplate the bus schedule and whether we can shove the coffeemaker into our bindle, so--win!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I really do want to ask you questions about AO3. Everybody seems to like it. You know what horrible times I had with SSA, you walked me through it enough times so you know what a techno-boob I am! Patient woman that you are. ;)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

YES! I do want to talk about the trip and the meet-up!

I've been meaning to message you, but I've been kind of slogging through feeling sorry for myself, gearing up for BG moving back home, and worrying about my dad and the way I've been screwing up his stuff. Oy! But don't be scared, it sounds worse than it is. ;)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

See Ferd? That's why you're the best!!! *leans on you, all happysighs*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Thanks my dear, give me a day or two and I'll be dancing in the streets--well, running actually, folks don't seem to take kindly to a little tango in the intersection 'round here... ;)

[danceswithgary]

Any time. Just let me know. :-)

[danceswithgary]

Ender and I have gotten nowhere with the admin(s) at SSA. It's very frustrating.

[garryowen.livejournal.com]

IKR! What if someone was having a real life/fandom life collision and really needed stuff taken down? It's awful! I know the wayback machine makes things hard to erase, but not that many people know about it...

Bah!

[tasabian.livejournal.com]

in the greater scheme of things, why me?
BECAUSE YOU MAKE US HAPPY!

[lapetite-kiki.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I don't know if you have seen my posts lately, but I think that many posts will interest you. ;-)

[tabaqui]

Awwwww!
*luffs you muchly*

He'll never leave, bay-bee - you rock too much! Really truly!!
*smishes you*

[jakrar.livejournal.com]

*gives you huggles* No man could be foolish enough to leave you, let alone the awesome Mr. Roxy!

And I think reposting the final versions of all your stories is a great idea. But maybe, for those of us who are internet-impaired, you could post a link? And how does one join DW, anyway?

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Hope you feel better soon!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*leans*
Thank you love. I hate when that dark shadow that creeps up from time to time makes me forget that. God knows I'm luckier than I deserve. *HUGS*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

ach, you sick and evol little biyatch, I'm so proud that you're mine. :) You always make me smile! *HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*HUGS SO HARD*

Thanks, love, I'm still feeling a litle crumbly, but better now...(see what i did there? *G*)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 42 and everything!!!!

My life's purpose is clear now! *snuggles right back*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

LOL!

Best reason there can possibly be! *GGG*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ooooo, I must go see--whenever you say that, it's always something that knocks my socks off! :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I know...plus there's that little matter of the LoJack....

*HUGGLES*

;)