crap!

[roxy]

My Friends, I'm about ready to throw in the towel, writing-wise. I am done. Empty like a storm drain in a drought. And what the hell does that even mean, throw in the towel? wait a min...

okay, I'm back: to admit defeat or failure.
Etymology: based on the literal meaning of throwing a towel into the ring in boxing (signaling that a fighter can no longer continue by throwing a towel into the area where the fight takes place)

Thanks, Free Dictionary.

Soooo...I'm blah when I'm not being blergh or blubby. Maybe it's old age, My Friends. Maybe I'm just...*flails* turning into a snail. I am kind of snailish, not slimy I mean, just pulling my little house over my head and hiding. (and totally aside, i'm not sure if it would be really cool, or just really, really icky, if i had my eyeballs on stalks. right? think about it. could come in handy for looking over the top shelves in the grocery store...'course, knowing me, i'd spend all my time poking myself in the eye...)

Thank god for the Job or I wouldn't step out of the house at all. And Mr. R. He levers me out of the house. I'm kind of sad he's back at work because when he was at home, he made me go lots of places. And I enjoyed it, after whining and complaining and trying to chew through the seatbelt for the first few miles...ach. I'm a wee bit high-maintenance.

Anyhoo, nothing's worked to refuel the writing bits of my brain. I've done all the little exercises and still nothing. I only have messy little story bits floating around in my head. Oh, the sorrow, oh, the loss of porn. Oh, my terminally stalled shmoopy curtain fic. And the guilt! I owe portraitofafool a bit of story, and oh so many folks I haven't read and just--ack! Too much. Can't think. *waves*
So sorry!

Comments

[jesseofthenorth.livejournal.com]

I know just how you feel. I am just coming out of a months long slump (mini-nano dragged me out kicking and screaming).
All summer not a word. I just gave up and gave myself permission to read. I also fond a new fandom (or 3) which helped ease the pain. And now I am back to writing.
Very frustrating though, yes?

Also. I read this on my feed page... clicked the expand thingy? At the end of the post it said 'collapse' ... took me a minute to realize that wasn't part of your post.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

At the end of the post it said 'collapse' ... took me a minute to realize that wasn't part of your post.

LOL! No, but it should have been!

Yeah, I don't know if I'm in the doldrums, writing-wise, or beginning that slow shift out of fandom. I hope not, because I love the boys but things happen...sadly, there's not a single shiny thing on the horizon fir me, and my foray into RPS was not entirely successful. *lesigh*. :(

[tasabian.livejournal.com]

Sometimes you just need a little time to recharge - or to have a really great episode come out & inspire you. Mr. R's "get out of the house" policy is a good one because often the best plot ideas can come to you when you're doing something completely unrelated! So don't fret, your muse will return when it's ready.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

It's just...weird and empty. Two months with nothing coming at all but lots of starts and no finishes. *siiiiiiiiiiigh*

I hope she doesn't wait too long to come back.

[cha.livejournal.com]

it's a fickle mistress!!! Maybe it will come back with time? :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I hope so! This all kind of hurts. :(

[cha.livejournal.com]

Gary lightwater - the singer in Snow Patrol had writer's block for months before he wrote their last cd. He said what he learned was that he had to write through it. Even if he was writing the most horrible stuff

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Well, my dear, I've got the horrible stuff down pat. :)

I think I'm probably just holding myself back by feeling sorry for myself. But I will keep trying. :)

[cha.livejournal.com]

Heh. Yeah I know that feeling the last time it happened to me I honestly had the feeling that I may just be finished writing fanfic.

[tabaqui]

*sigh*

I know the feeling, bb, and it's so very, very frustrating.

BAH.
*smishes*

Come, let's go watch all the pretty boys in some kind of BOY marathon of marathon-y-ness. I'll bring the stove-top-made popcorn drenched in real butter!!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

pretty boys sounds damn good to me. I'd like to just shut off my brain for a while and oggle. Oogle? Ach, let's just call it perving. :)

[tabaqui]

Heee. Ogling sounds good, too. Let's do it all!

[quiet--tiger.livejournal.com]

If it makes you feel better, this little entry here of yours has better prose in it than plenty of books I've read, so even if you're not feeling inspired, please remember that you have a way of telling stories and making things entertaining that is unique, IMO. You have a way of setting up your entries as if you have us all circled around you for story time, which is supposed to be a compliment in case it comes off as weird. I can't be the only one who feels like that. I'm sure Sam and Dean and whomever else is just taking a break and will soon be eagerly waiting in the wings for you.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

. You have a way of setting up your entries as if you have us all circled around you for story time

*blink*

YES!!! Omg, yes, that's the way I think of my LJ, exactly that way!!! I'm so happy it feels that way to you! That's how I used to view my writing, like it's story time.Lately, I've gotten so caught up in insecurity and terrible envy of other writers that I've really stalled out. Shit, I should just not worry about the craft of writing and just do what I feel most comfortable doing.

Thank you, gosh, you sure made me feel good!

[portraitofafool.livejournal.com]

Dinna worry, lovely, it'll come back. Sometimes it feels like you're living in your very own horror story though--the one where the evil magician comes and takes all of your words away, leaving you bereft and alone without them. And you wonder: How can I go on? Then one day when you are feeling your bleakest, after you've screamed and torn out wads of your hair and resorted to a fancy wig, the words come back to you. Huzzah, rejoice, the evil word-stealing wizard is dead and you may carry on again!

Translation: Writer's block sucks and makes you rage like a ragey thing, but it will come back to you. *hugs*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

LOL!!!

Thank you, that was most inspirational! And I think I'm going to wear a pink wig when I've snatched myself bald.

[portraitofafool.livejournal.com]

Pink wig = MROW. Go for it, sexy lady! *cha-cha-cha*

(I don't know, okay? Don't judge me. *looks around*)

[gingersnap1224.livejournal.com]

No worries. Good things come to those who wait.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I have all extremities crossed! :)