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roxyI had the worst dream last night. It was a nightmare, I guess. It's still freaking me out and I'm a little afraid to go to sleep...*bites nails*
I dreamt I was dying, I think. I was in bed and my eyes closed, and it felt like I was at the top of a rollercoaster, that bit right before you start to tip and you're anticipating the drop. First it was the black you get when you close your eyes, and then it was BLACK, the blackest black I've ever seen, so black it had weight. I couldn't see anything, but there was this part in the middle of the black--like a blacker slot in the black. IT WAS SO FUCKING BLACK!! it's still creeping me out...anyway, even though I couldn't see anything, it felt like things were pouring into that slot, and I had some feeling of movement, but it was also pressure, like I was being sucked into it and squeezed as well. I felt my awareness of things start to fray and I was desperately holding on to it but thinking I should probably let go, and that I wouldn't know it if I did let go because there would be nothing with a capital noth, and then I sort of thought with what was left, "but what about the Fam?" I didn't want Mr. R to come home and find me.
So. He's out of state right now and I'm not surprised that I had an anxiety dream (i've been anxiety cleaning. you know how that goes. but, *score* too, because its been too long since i cleaned the bathroom).
Blaar! I just had to share that because I'm still so fucking creeped out by it! I'll have to recycle that bitch into a story. *shudder*
I feel better now. How's by ya'll? :D
I dreamt I was dying, I think. I was in bed and my eyes closed, and it felt like I was at the top of a rollercoaster, that bit right before you start to tip and you're anticipating the drop. First it was the black you get when you close your eyes, and then it was BLACK, the blackest black I've ever seen, so black it had weight. I couldn't see anything, but there was this part in the middle of the black--like a blacker slot in the black. IT WAS SO FUCKING BLACK!! it's still creeping me out...anyway, even though I couldn't see anything, it felt like things were pouring into that slot, and I had some feeling of movement, but it was also pressure, like I was being sucked into it and squeezed as well. I felt my awareness of things start to fray and I was desperately holding on to it but thinking I should probably let go, and that I wouldn't know it if I did let go because there would be nothing with a capital noth, and then I sort of thought with what was left, "but what about the Fam?" I didn't want Mr. R to come home and find me.
So. He's out of state right now and I'm not surprised that I had an anxiety dream (i've been anxiety cleaning. you know how that goes. but, *score* too, because its been too long since i cleaned the bathroom).
Blaar! I just had to share that because I'm still so fucking creeped out by it! I'll have to recycle that bitch into a story. *shudder*
I feel better now. How's by ya'll? :D
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7/12/15 01:35 am (UTC)*HUGS YOU SOME MORE*
WHen does he return? Cuddle into bed and watch some SPN?
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7/12/15 01:50 am (UTC)I've been staying up all night reading BBs. Which, as you're starting to fall asleep without knowing it, get real weird but entertaining, lol!
Two more days! At least I have
co-workers to abuse and take my take my anxieties out onwork to distract me!(no subject)
7/12/15 02:50 am (UTC)(no subject)
7/12/15 03:33 am (UTC)I did actually look at some very lovely gifs! Nothing better to bring out the smiles. :GRINS*
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7/12/15 03:09 am (UTC)DO *NOT* go quietly into that verdamndt night! We need you here!
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7/12/15 03:35 am (UTC)Oh, trust me, my fingernails are sunk in the door frame!! Not going anywhere! :D
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7/12/15 03:33 am (UTC)Creeptastic.
*smishes you*
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7/12/15 03:36 am (UTC)I need more porn, I think.
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7/12/15 03:46 am (UTC)Did you read my Bucky/Steve D/s thing? Lots of porn over there in that challenge!
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7/12/15 03:48 am (UTC)(no subject)
7/12/15 03:51 am (UTC)Enjoy!
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7/12/15 06:09 am (UTC)(no subject)
7/12/15 01:47 pm (UTC)Awesome. :)
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7/12/15 04:04 am (UTC)(no subject)
7/12/15 04:38 am (UTC)*roxy be on her fourth cup of hi-test coffee*
Not that I'm scared anymore. *slurp*
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7/12/15 04:09 am (UTC):)
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7/12/15 04:39 am (UTC):D
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7/12/15 05:15 am (UTC)*lots and lots of hugs* ♥
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7/12/15 06:10 am (UTC)It was scary, beloved!! But I'm going to concentrate on pretty boys doing naughty things and not worry, la! ♥
;D
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7/12/15 06:00 am (UTC)That must have been very scary. But maybe it's more important to remember that you came back. For your family's sake. And even though it may only have been a dream, that was a very brave thing to do aye? Maybe a signal from your brain that you can overcome the anxiety that you are going through now with your hubby gone and with work.
You can do it, love!
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7/12/15 06:11 am (UTC)Thank you!!! Thank you so much! :)
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7/12/15 07:17 am (UTC)--Jessica
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7/12/15 04:27 pm (UTC)You asked for it.
7/13/15 02:40 am (UTC)Having reread the facts of the case, it probably won't freak you out as much as I thought, but if you're still wobbly, the URL will still be here when you're done wobbling. :)
--Jessica
Re: You asked for it.
7/13/15 02:44 am (UTC)Re: You asked for it.
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7/12/15 02:54 pm (UTC)I remember reading a Christian story one time about a little sick girl who fell asleep with her hands clasped in prayer and in the morning she was better. I'd offer up that idea to protect you in your sleep, but you can't believe it, I tried it when I was six and sick with the flue, didn't work. : ( A baseball bat by your side might prove reassuring though!
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7/12/15 04:19 pm (UTC)Yeah, I'd probably have to go with the bat--God helps them who help themselves, and all. *GGG*
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7/12/15 04:21 pm (UTC)*hangs head and blushes* Yeah, I stayed up all night--doof that I am. :D
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7/12/15 04:14 pm (UTC)*HUGS TIGHT* I hate dreams like those ... they tend to stick with you ♥ ♥
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7/12/15 04:23 pm (UTC)*HUGS*! ♥
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