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Wow, it feels like I haven't been here in forever and it's only been one day! Sheesh!

so, I've been doing a lot of reading--and it's wonderful and enjoyable and also, really depressing. *sigh*

Ah well. Like people say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Is that how it goes? And isn't that just fucking stupid? What doesn't kill you...

I'd like to test that out on someone who believes that...how about I beat them 'til they're almost dead and then ask them how they feel. Let's get realistic--"what doesn't kill you seems a little easier to take with anti-depressants." There ya go.

Okay, I'm going to do...something. I'm not sure yet, but it's going to be pretty good. Whatever it is.

Oh yeah, by the way, for those of you who watch Nip/Tuck--( spoilery comment )

I need a hug!

I lost the next two chapters of Dis Pater jupiter and I also lost all of a new fic I was writing. Right now I feel so bad. I know, I've done this over and over but this time--I think I'm just going to let it go. I feel kind of broken.
I know how I did it. it was my own fault. after all this time I should know better. it sucks having no one to blame but yourself. I was--am --so upset, I wanted to yank everything and go to bed forever. I'm this close to just closing up the Space and taking a nice long nap.