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roxyThis about my sister
I'm not content. I'm distinctly unhappy. Not in a soul crushing,"the world is ending" kind of thing, more in a just crappy undertone to everything.RL is sort of cutting little pieces out of me and I'm having a hard time dealing. My sister is going to live in a facility that cares for people with TBI.When a heart attack caused her to stop breathing , it also killed the parts of her that made her my sister. Now she's a vaguely pleasant person, instead of the funniest , meanest bitch in the whole world.She used to be able to make me cry laughing,I'd laugh so fucking hard my guts would ache. Shit , that was one funny bitch!She was tough , practical and no nonsense when she needed to be, but was never afraid to be a goofy bitch either.(just like me!) She could get away with anything, people would just fall all over them selves for her and well they should. She deserved it.She always gave as much as she got.
I think sometimes "what would she think of my new... hobby?" She'd probably shake her head and act like she was horrified,and be secretly pleased at more evidence of my nutty-ness. She liked it when I demonstrated my insanity.
This woman guided me through so much shit in my life..hell, this is the woman that introduced me to Mr.Roxy and insured that I would never be alone again.(something to that soul-mate shit after all...)She was my best friend ever and we shared so much. Damn! She was always in my corner,we had each other's back, all the time, G-girls!When other folks couldn't keep up with up it was a fuck-you and a grin, and we'd keep on going.
Damn. This sounds like a eulogy...in a way it is. That person is gone for ever,never coming back and I can't do a fucking thing about it. All I can do is what we promised each other when we had our daughters ( who are so fucking like us it's scary) "If something should happen to me,raise the kid like I would."
OK ,trying to do that, babe...
Raise the middle finger and spill a little wine for the fallen.
I'm not content. I'm distinctly unhappy. Not in a soul crushing,"the world is ending" kind of thing, more in a just crappy undertone to everything.RL is sort of cutting little pieces out of me and I'm having a hard time dealing. My sister is going to live in a facility that cares for people with TBI.When a heart attack caused her to stop breathing , it also killed the parts of her that made her my sister. Now she's a vaguely pleasant person, instead of the funniest , meanest bitch in the whole world.She used to be able to make me cry laughing,I'd laugh so fucking hard my guts would ache. Shit , that was one funny bitch!She was tough , practical and no nonsense when she needed to be, but was never afraid to be a goofy bitch either.(just like me!) She could get away with anything, people would just fall all over them selves for her and well they should. She deserved it.She always gave as much as she got.
I think sometimes "what would she think of my new... hobby?" She'd probably shake her head and act like she was horrified,and be secretly pleased at more evidence of my nutty-ness. She liked it when I demonstrated my insanity.
This woman guided me through so much shit in my life..hell, this is the woman that introduced me to Mr.Roxy and insured that I would never be alone again.(something to that soul-mate shit after all...)She was my best friend ever and we shared so much. Damn! She was always in my corner,we had each other's back, all the time, G-girls!When other folks couldn't keep up with up it was a fuck-you and a grin, and we'd keep on going.
Damn. This sounds like a eulogy...in a way it is. That person is gone for ever,never coming back and I can't do a fucking thing about it. All I can do is what we promised each other when we had our daughters ( who are so fucking like us it's scary) "If something should happen to me,raise the kid like I would."
OK ,trying to do that, babe...
Raise the middle finger and spill a little wine for the fallen.
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5/21/04 05:09 pm (UTC)she'd be happy. you do good.
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5/22/04 03:00 am (UTC)(no subject)
5/21/04 10:21 pm (UTC)*pets you very, very gently*
No words, sweetie, and i'd offer you anything you'd ask if i thought it would do a bit of good.
I'll offer anyway.
I've got a sister, too.
*hugs you*
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5/22/04 03:04 am (UTC)(no subject)
5/22/04 03:38 am (UTC)