not cutting because i want everyone to feel my pain--AGAIN!!!

[roxy]

So, let me tell you what I did last night.

I finished Deal. Yes, well more or less, there was a little epiloggy thingy to do--but I finished most of it and posted the first half. Breathed a big ole sigh of relief and said, "Roxy, let us close all these documents that are cluttering up the place needlessly and get a cup of coffee, chill a min and post the rest. So I did--and declined to save any of them because, boy howdy--that story was done, it would eat my brain no more. Oh, and I wrapped my paper notes around a rib I was nibbling on and tossed it in the garbage. Yeah--I was eating a rib without a plate and sitting at the keyboard--so what?

anyhooo...after coffee, and a little bit of Da Vinci's Inquest because CKR is on at the moment, and also that other scraggly little guy I find strangely attractive in a Badger sort of way, I went to post the rest and it was GONE because I KILLED it.
KILLED it DEAD.

Soooo...I sat there for a bit, and shut off the laptop, and went to bed.

And now, I'm trying to recreate the damn thing. And maybe it's good that I have to re-write it. And maybe I'm still a little in shock.

'Cause I mean--what the fuck was that? That was possibly the stupidest thing I'd ever done--stupider than going to that party with a see through shirt on and no bra. Stupider than losing the rubber. Stupider than getting in that clown car packed with drunks, stupider than...well, okay, maybe not the stupidest thing ever but, wow.

That really sucked.

On the other hand...oh, wait--THERE IS NO FUCKING OTHER HAND!!!!!!

I need more coffee... ;)

Comments

[kristiinthedark.livejournal.com]

Oh noes!!!! That's awful! *squeaks*

*tries to distract you*

LOOK! CKR!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

OOOOOOOO!!! *clings--runs*
*has her evol way with him*

*makes him cry like a little girl*

Gee, thanks!

[miche-connor.livejournal.com]

Oh, man, I have SO done that when I have been tired. I am sorry :/




(what's CKR?)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

here is CKR! (http://pics.livejournal.com/manage/pic?id=84)

[miche-connor.livejournal.com]

Um --

I have the dumb. I cannot brain this.

(it didn't work? eep?)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

there he is!

[miche-connor.livejournal.com]

AHA!!!

Thank you for enlightening the ditzy redhead. ;P :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ditzy? Who's the one who wiped out her story? *grin*
We shall be ditzy together!! Huzzah!

[miche-connor.livejournal.com]

Hey, I DO have the Pirate Root Beer. Heh.

*comes on over* :)

*Lifts her bottle to clink on yours*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*clink* woo-hoo! Root beer!!
*puts on eyepatch*
Gotta have the eyepatch! *g*

[shadowstar-gzan.livejournal.com]

*spazzes* Oh me gawd! *glomp, smooch*

Well, look on the bright side- if there were any parts you didn't like, you can redo them now ^.^;

*is shot in the face* ...Ow. That'll leave a mark XD

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

HAH!
I question the sincerity of your shmooches!!!

and yes, lord--there were many parts I didn't like---gasp!!
It was fate!!!

[shadowstar-gzan.livejournal.com]

They were sincere! I know exactly what you're going through. *pout*

Haha! Yeah, it sure seems that way sometimes, huh? XD

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

We should test it. *holds out cheek for more shmoochies*
*grin*

[shadowstar-gzan.livejournal.com]

hee! Okay! *gives you a loud, smacking smoochie* How was that for ya? *g*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

so sincere!!!

[lastscorpion.livejournal.com]

OMG! Poor Roxy! There, there!

Heh heh -- that's a really impressive list of previous stupid things!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

LOL!!!
Girl, I could write a book! But lucky for me--*leaps up smelling like roses* Never quite stupid enough to hurt. *GRIN*

[ladydreamer.livejournal.com]

ARGH you have my sympathies. I hate having to rewrite because I lost my text!! It makes me so so sad.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Right? *snivelsnivel*
I think it's a little better then the first try,though. *g*

[ladydreamer.livejournal.com]

I'm sure it is. *pat pat*

[dawnybee.livejournal.com]

Ooooh, man! So sorry to hear that. It blows hard when that happens.

//That was possibly the stupidest thing I'd ever done--stupider than going to that party with a see through shirt on and no bra. Stupider than losing the rubber. Stupider than getting in that clown car packed with drunks//
Okay, postpone the ending of Deal and let us in on this :D

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ach--not a real clown car, fer gods sake--I just meant a tiny tiny car, packed with a fucking bunch of idiots drunk out of their minds and trying to drive home--we almost drove off the fucking bridge from Philly back to Jersey--I mostly remember thinking oh fuck--I'm gonna die with a bunch of fucking idiots...yeah--not so much bothered by the possibility of a horrible death by crashing from a great height and into a filthy river as being found dead with assholes--the embarrassment! LOL!!
Ah Youth! needless to say, this happened in the age of the dinosaurs! *G*

[dawnybee.livejournal.com]

//Ach--not a real clown car, fer gods sake//
Clown car? We're talking about going out in a see through shirt w/ no bra!

[droolfangrrl.livejournal.com]

erm...

can't you check your trash file and restore it? also it might still be floading about as some sort of temp file

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Yeah-checked the trash--and...a temp file you say?

[droolfangrrl.livejournal.com]

mmm, nrrrrm let me see if I can get a friend to look the situation over, which program were you using to write in, and what OS are you running it under?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I was using microsoft word. *looks stupid but hopeful*

[droolfangrrl.livejournal.com]

"DFG Prime: she was doing this in microsoft word
squidflakes: how did she kill it? deleted it by accident? or did she close the application, or what?
DFG Prime: sounds like she closed it
squidflakes: have her open the app, then select file, and scroll down, the file should be in a list at the very end of the menu
DFG Prime: mmm
squidflakes: if its a newer version of office, it will pop up a window that asks if you want to recover the document
DFG Prime: I'm gonna quote you"

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

oh dear...it offers me files that are not what I killed.
thank you dear.

[droolfangrrl.livejournal.com]

erm...

So you have the rest of the story then???

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

When I closed everything-it asked me if I wanted to save what I'd written and I said no--so...The files I didn't save weren't there--but some of my notes I did find and that helped--so I'm pretty much on track again. it's different than what I'd written the first time, but I think it might be more interesting. (x's fingers)

[droolfangrrl.livejournal.com]

okie, good luck then.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

typing so hard and so fast, my fingers are bleeding! well, okay, not really, but they are a little sore. *g*

[beet]

*squeek!*

You poor thing!!! *pets you*

I lost enough papers in the early years of network applications and college, that I have been very, very thorougly trained to save compulsively. Everythime I hit a new paragraph, pause for a moment to collect my thoughts or otherwise breathe, I hit control-s and save. Seriously. I think you need to explore the joys of obsessive-compulsive computer behavior.

Also - Mmmmm... ribs.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

well see, it wasn't a matter of forgetting to save it--it was me telling it *not* to save the stuff. I apparently dropped into the Violently Stupid Zone for a bit.

And yes, mmmm ribs! Mr. Roxy murders some ribs--they are to die for!

[beet]

Yeah.

I actually save blank documents as soon as I open them. Then I compulsively "Control-s" every 10-15 seconds. It's probably not a healthy behavior, or maybe would be of interest to a psychiatrist, but... I'm scarred, dammit! Scarred, I tell you!

Have you had any luck rewriting the ending?

[fan-spagle.livejournal.com]

Oh, I so feel that pain...I had written a long ending to one of my WIP's and lost it...I almost cried. It took me so long to write it and when I saw it was gone...*hugs you*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*clings*
Happens to me at least twice a year, and each time it's a new and different way of screwing up! I hardly even cry anymore. *G*

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

Oh NO!! *hugs* don't you hate that! Happened to me with my first vid, but I managed to get it put back together. You can do it!

Is Da Vinci's Inquest worth watching? I keep seeing it on the guide, but I can't figure out if it's something I would like.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I like it but I have what amounts to a kink for Canadian shows so...*grinshrug* It's a little grittier than the average cop show.

[norwich36.livejournal.com]

Oh no!!!

::hugs you::

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

ACK!

[rumpuso.livejournal.com]

I just found this post of yours. Oh Roxy! :(

Big Teletubby hug for you.

[tabaqui]

Ooooooooooooooooooooooooh.
*pet pet pet pet pet pet pet*

[arianstarr.livejournal.com]

You have just described what is close to my biggest fear. *shudder* Mostly because I suck at rewrites and my handwritten notes are generally illegible after about 48 hours. Eeek.