does this make sense?

[roxy]

I feel like I'm writing Non Timebo Mala for the Reading Club, but I'm writing Impossible Things for myself. I Got Your Man was all for me, too. I like to tell myself stories that are angsty, but also full of goofiness. I think some silly stuff I've written was mistaken for serious. Just because sad things happen in the stories doesn't mean they are all that serious. Kryptonian Boy comes to mind--that one was one long string of silly events. Also, slut!Clark figures hugely in my silly stories. After all, what's a funnier image than Clark as a huge clueless innocent slut? It cracks me up! Still, I try not to go too OOC with the character. There's canon precedent for slutty Clark, as well as evil, so it never bothers me much to depict Clark that way.

So here I am writing about my silly stories instead of desperately answering comments and reading what I can before the laptop passes out. I did grab everything I'm writing on now because last night I was working away on Impossible Things when bam. Nothing. The thing died with no warning. There was weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth. I rewrote that part, somewhat better and as per tabaqui's sage advice, saved it to a flashdrive. IT STLL HURT.

So that's what this thing does. It waves like, "I'm okay! I'm good, let's do this!" and then passes out. Probably wakes up in the equivalent of some virtual back alley, smelling of booze and wearing its clothes inside out and backward....

THANK YOU mobiusklein FOR THE WELL WISHES AND THE COOL FOOTBALL! I need to kick something around! ;)

Comments

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

I completely understand the 'writing for the reading club' situation. There's an AU that I want to write, but it's slowly becoming me writing it for everyone else because they want it instead of me writing it for myself and sharing it with everyone.

Does writing Non Timebo Mala for the Reading Club mean you're starting to dislike it?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

but it's slowly becoming me writing it for everyone else because they want it instead of me writing it for myself and sharing it with everyone.

Right? And it always feels kind of odd when I do that. As for NTM, no, no, it's still a story I love, it's just that I feel that I have to try extra hard to make it readable and sensible, even though I think that boat sank. When it's just for my fun, I don't really care about anything but acting out all my fantasies. :)

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you love NTM. It sucks to be stuck finishing something of that scope when you don't love it.

I completely forgot how fun it can be to write for yourself until my new project. I still beat my head against the desk repeatedly, but when the writing is good and I share a few little teasers with my friends, i start remembering why we're supposed to be doing this.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Yes!!

I think I've been working in a vacuum lately too, I haven't been sharing or asking folks to help. I need to do that!

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

A vacuum can be helpful sometimes, but I'm noticing that if I don't have my alpha readers look at it, even if it's just a few lines, then I start arguing with myself that the story sucks.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

lol, how long have you been putting up with that from me? the panicked e-mailed screams for help? *grin* Yeah, I like to write on my own but too many times I end up staring at the screen and saying omg, how much does this suck! But I love the times I'm looking and thinking wow, this is great! And that happens once in a blue moon. :)

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

LOL About as long as we've known each other. And you know you can send me your stuff whenever you need a cheerleader. :P

Writing alone works for me until I start getting antsy and needing to have someone take a look to see if I'm staying in voice. Then I have a nice long panic attack.

[silsbee329.livejournal.com]

Dang it. :(
*hugs*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Still hanging on!!

[tabaqui]

*snuggles you*

You roxor, whatever you're writing. And man, i hope your lappy gets better soon.
*smooch*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I hope so too because I KNOW WHAT THE END OF NTM IS NOW, WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

[tabaqui]

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!