ARG!

[roxy]

I do want to post the next bit of Come The Night, *hi you guys reading it!! wavewavewave!!!* but if I have to read that bitch one more time, I'm going to barf! Not that it's bad. It's not bad. There's a lot of it and I've been doing nothing but working on that. I really want to get this story wrapped up, I'm much more interested in writing the end than this bridgy bit right now. Is that bad? I always thought that authors wanted to write every single bit of their story, and *loved* every single bit. I don't know if it's different for what I do, but there are parts of every story I write that I'm not much in love with. I try hard to make those parts as decent as the bits I love. I hate to think that there are parts of a fic that shout "she ran through this with rainboots on". I can only hope that the reader can't tell. And don't pick out bits and ask if I mean this part or that part because almost definitely you'll pick out a part I love and make me cry. It's the Law of the Universe.

Right now, I have so many fics battling in my head--I want to write some more Put A Candle in the Window because I want more Stan and some other people--I want to write a story that is full of lovers and friends Dean had without Sam. Not because I don't love Sam, I do--so much! But I hate the thought of Dean not having any life at all while Sam does, and there's got to be something that kept Dean from getting in touch with Sam for two years or whatever it was--and it wasn't John. The man might have loved his boys but no matter what JDM says, he's got all the fuzzy warmth of a cinderblock. Dean tries to copy him and does a decent job but he's really not much of a lone cowboy, soup-for-one kinda guy. That guy attaches faster than a limpet given a chance. At least, he does in my opinion, and mind you, I do wear Dean-colored glasses....

Well, I suppose I should stop nattering and start editing. Thanks for listening! :)

Comments

[day221b.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way on the whole writer-y thing. Normally, I get the parts of the story I love done as soon as the ideas start flowing. So I pinball all around the story until all the bridgey things are done. I think - for the most part - that it helps me to write like this. Though sometimes I wish I could write in order. That way, if I got stuck, at least I could do a WIP and get a little encouragement along the way.


That's not how meh brain works, though. So I feel for ya.


Anyway, can you switch back and forth between the stories? It might help get the creative juices flowing and help with those pesky bridgey-type gaps. Or is a deadline involved?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ha--I don't know why I always think I'm so odd--I love that other folks get this too! :)

I have been switching a bit, and it helps a little but then I get this obsession, that X story NEEDS to be done NOW--and no, no deadline besides my own, lol!!

[portraitofafool.livejournal.com]

Ugh, what you said times a GABILLION. I always do that (and always have) with my stories, save one. ONE in... erm... a lot. I mean, seriously, there is always this ONE PART where I am typing at the speed of snail because I just don't wanna do it. So, I end up bitching, procrastinating, getting throroughly annoyed (and sometimes downright mad) and forever and ever and always hate that one bit, which I usually find falls roughly in the middle for me. I am currently doing the stuff I want to do in one of mine because I could not make myself write another word of the bit I hate. And the thing about it? There's really nothing wrong with it. I just despise it to the darkest depths of hell. Of course, I do tend to run in extremes with things (I am horrible when it comes to my writing, just... the worst...). My rambling point is: I do know what you mean and it's not just you at all; when I have to proof those bits of my stories I really sort of... hiss and spit about it because I don't even want to read over it for typos or comma splices.

Oy... This, my friend, is another joy of being a writer I think.

*smishes you* Hang in there, it'll all be over soon.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ha! I always feel a little guilty doing the bits I love and ignoring the parts I hate--it's like that guilt that was deeply imbedded in me as a kid, wanting dessert first and feeling like wanting it was a crime! We were taught that was wrong. The proper way is, bad stuff first, and *then* the good stuff, lol!

always hate that one bit, which I usually find falls roughly in the middle for me.

Pretty much for me too! When it's a very long fic, I find there are two or three points that I balk at going to, that I hate editing, that I end up rewriting a billion times until I finally cave and end up kicking the damn thing out the door and hoping for the best.

I like this fic but I'll be soooo grateful when I post the last bit, oy!

[tabaqui]

HA. I know the feeling. If there's a scene i particularly want to write/am inspired by, the stuff that gets me there is sometimes so *not what i want to write*. Makes it hard.

As for your Dean and John thoughts - you are so right. Dean could put down roots in a parking lot if he let himself.
*pets him*

I have about six fics i want to write and post *right now*, none of which i can actually work on (long story, computer dead, borrowed lappy) and i am...going...nuts!!
*clings to you, as a rock in a sea of madness*