SpN 8X09 my off the cuff first reaction

[roxy]

I'm a Dean girl, always have been, even though I don't make a big deal about it. What a douche. I'm going to take a deep breath, do a little woosah. No, fuck that, where does he get *off* with that shit? This is the first time I've ever thought that he made a call that was totally, completely wrong. In seven seasons, he's been a jerk, but let's face it, he's always been right. Not tonight. That was harsh, that was mean, and that was totally self-serving. Trust me, I know very well from self-serving dickery and that was a prime example. He *knew* that was going to hurt. Boy, Dean never forgets and only half-forgives, hunh? How is Sam supposed to come back from that? How are they asking us to *forget* about that? Sam paid all the penance he needs to pay, *all* of it. Anything he did wrong, and don't tell me he wasn't a fucking bitch to Dean with Ruby and the seals and whatnot, he was--but he paid for that. He's got a clean slate. But Dean...*holds up hands* I can't even think right now.

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[cordelia-gray.livejournal.com]

If it's any consolation, I thought Sam was a way bigger dick this week, and I'm a Sam girl. I don't think I've ever liked either of them less :(

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

omgosh, I can't tell you how *sad* I am that you're not happy with them! I read your posts and I just want to make you tea and cookies and promise you it'll be all right!

I'm a huge Dean girl and I just want to hug poor Sam up. They still love each other. It's just Dean is really hurt at what he sees as Sam's betrayal--which it's not, really, not! Sam snapped hard and thought he found the answer and now he's floundering. I think he actively wanted to overwrite Dean in his head in order to live. Imagine this poor guy and how much misery and loss he's had to deal with, over and over. They've never dealt with anything in a healthy way, and this aspect of their relationship is fascinating to me. The only thing I worry about it there being no fix because I'm not all that sure that Carver really gets the important part of the show *is* the relationship, the friendship.

my stars, I'm really blabby tonight! :)

[cordelia-gray.livejournal.com]

I understood a lot of what Sam was doing, but there were certain things, like getting a person who was obviously unstable and unfit to be hunting involved in that messy family drama, and then stealing his car and ditching him in the woods in the middle of a hunt, which just seem so utterly out of character to me.

As for the love - I want to see it, I just don't right now. Dean taking the time to program Amelia's number into that phone, on the off-chance he'd need to use it someday to manipulate Sam - not seeing a lot of love or trust there. I feel like the relationship has passed through "unhealthy" and into "toxic" at this point.