wtf, omgosh!!!

[roxy]

It's panic time. I've written 18000 words, more or less, on my SpNBB and now I'm not sure about this story at all and if I can move forward or--anything!! I'm panicking all over the place and ready to drop kick it. I have other stories I've started and stuttered on but they could probably be up to speed by check-in.

I just don't know what to do. How should I handle this? Should I work on the possible replacement story and set a time limit to get to a certain word count or just plug away at the story I'm stuck on now? I was thinking on the fic I'm working on now to plunge on from the beginning to the end and then try and clean up and make it pretty. Part of my problem is the way I envisioned the fic in the beginning required a bunch of OCs and now I find I don't *want* to write the OCs. But cutting the OCs out at this point really kills major parts of the story that I did manage to write--big rewrites. Which would make this the third rewrite on the beginning part, lol!! I'm getting so hung up on that part that the rest is wandering in the dark and the first part wasn't even supposed to be that big. Oy.

Ugh. Thanks for letting me bitch here. If you have some advice, I'd be so happy to hear it.

Comments

[tifaching.livejournal.com]

Why'd you change your mind about the OCs? Is there no way you can work them in? It'd be a shame with so much done to scrap it all.

If you really think it's impossible to work out and you have other possibilities waiting in the wings, then you could do one instead.

Not terribly helpful, sorry!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I guess I just wanted to tell Dean and Sam's story . Plus, I have to like the OCs and so far I don't--if that makes sense, seeing as how they're my characters, hah! If I work hard at it, I know I can do it but the desire to work hard is not there. :(

Thanks for letting me rant, that's all I'm really asking for. :)

[gingersnap1224.livejournal.com]

Take a deep breath. 18,000 words is a lot of work to just abandon. I know this doesn't help, but after reading the teaser on the BB sight, I really want to read this story. It sounds amazing. You can do it!!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I keep telling myself that but the more I work on it, the worse it seems to get. I walk away from it, but when I sidle up to it again, it just sneers at me. Maybe I'll just change the whole thing--make Sam and Dean into kitties. Talking kitties who fight crime. With magic bagels.

[tifaching.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I'd read that!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

NO!! No talking kitties!! no magic bagels! Unless they're magic bagpipes...and maybe they're centaurs instead of kitties, yeah. Crime-fighting, bagpipe-playing centaurs--ooh, no wait! They're stripper centaurs, out to save the world one piece of clothing at a time. And since they're basically big horses, a kilt and a sash, maybe a vest...

[tifaching.livejournal.com]

Hahahaha! Oh, now there's an image. The bagpipes make the whole thing work!

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

And a codpiece ;-)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

0.0

on a horse...? That's a lot of codpiece. And a *lot* of cod...what? Really?

I've been told there's no cod in codpieces...hunh. Who knew!

[gingersnap1224.livejournal.com]

Well, everybody loves a magic bagel.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

With a little magic lox and creamcheese...mmmmm!!

[rockstarpeach.livejournal.com]

Write all the fics.

ALL OF THEM.

And I love your OCs, as a rule, so I hope you can manage to get your groove back on that one :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

omg, my comment went to the wrong place. I meant to say, thanks about the OCs! I've got a bad guy named Uncle Luke, a shapeshifting dog boy and an asshole werewolf so far, and it's not even supposed to be funny. :(

[tabaqui]

Okay, so - who's you're beta? Who's reading this over for you? Have them read it, have them then tell you if they get it, if it makes sense, if they understand what you have so far. And then brainstorm a bit with them and see if together you can figure out a way to end it, or a direction you should go in. Tell them what ending you imagined - if you imagined any ending - and figure out how to get there.

And - stop rewriting, right now! Just stop. Get it read, talk about it, then see if you can finish it up even in a rough draft. Then you can start polishing and perfecting.

Now, bb, breathe. Just breathe.

*pet pet pet pet pet*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

No one's reading this over for me, I didn't ask. i figured once i had something going I'd ask, but you know me. :/

I have pushed myself away from the story!

[tabaqui]

You silly thing.
*pet pet pet pet*

So, send it along, bb. I won't be able to read it tonight, but i can tomorrow and then we can talk about it. KK?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I can send both parts. *koff* So much stuff....
*clings*

[tabaqui]

*smooch*

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

I totally agree with this, I've had one crisis of faith in my bb so far, and my beta helped me see reason. I'm happy to look at your story - not beta it, because I have to do my cinema still too - but give you a feedback.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Are you sure you don't mind--it's a ton of really ugly wordage....

And I'm totally sending it all to you. *GGG*

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

Sure thing! :-) Need my address?

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Yes, please! :)

[twinsarein.livejournal.com]

If I remember the SpNBB, you have until the beginning of May. So, you have some time. Especially being 18K in. Have a couple of people read it over for you, doesn't have to be your beta, just a person or two you trust to give it a good look and give you honest feedback. While they're doing that you can either take a breather or take a look at one of the other stories you have on the back burner.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

A few friends have volunteered to look, so yeah, I'm going to stop panicking and take a breath, lol!

[tasabian.livejournal.com]

Man, I read BB as "Baby", as in "BabyGirl" & was so relieved it was just about your story!

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

LOL!!! :-D Stuff like that happens to me all the time!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

LOL! I'm always having heartattack moments like that! Rest assured, BG is perfectly fine! :D

[runedgirl.livejournal.com]

18,000 words is too much to abandon, imho. (It's also wayyyy more than I've written for my poor neglected big bang...) Maybe changing the OC's, so that you do like them, is the way to go? I'm hoping your helpful beta offers get you feeling better about your fic too. *hugs you in empathy of BB panic*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Oh no! No neglected BBs!

I think I'm going to rework that whole bit with the OCs, maybe reduce the number and just really flesh out the one character.

And please feel free to call on me for cheerleading at any time. I'm not useful much but I'm very enthusiastic!

Plus with my new grippers I'm, y'know, unstoppable. :)

[la-sigh.livejournal.com]

Hope you are feeling better this morning. Glad that you have betas now, that is grounding, and knowing you're not alone helps.
We love you and your work so much. We know that you'll bring us something lovely. You always do !!
You are an amazing writer, sweetie !!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Thank you love! Much, much better this morning! It was like admitting I was having problems lifted the worry a bit. I even managed to get some words out this morning.

*HUUUUUUUUUUGS* You lift my spirits!

[lyryk.livejournal.com]

As others have suggested, I'd totally propose asking your beta to give you feedback on what you have so far. I know I'm already getting all clingy with my beta, even though I only have 4k so far. :-) Good luck with the writing! I'm excited about your fic. :-))

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Every time I get excited about the new crop of BBs, knowing I'm expected to add to it kind of dashes cold water on the excitement, lol!

I'm so glad that folks have stepped up and offered to take a look. My regular beta is insanely busy with RL and just hasn't been able to squeeze me in. Darn that success in the real world. :)

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I would suggest working on your back up and saving the other for future posting. Mostly because I'm always overly cautious, but also because it will take a load of stress off of you.