Not happy.

[roxy]

I'm so down about my BB that it's screwing up everything. I just can't feel crappy that I'm having trouble with it, no, I've got to translate that into "I'm a crappy person." I'm *not* sending this hot mess to anyone until I get some sense that it's salvageable. Though if any of you could give me an ending, that'd be great--hah.

I'm giving myself a couple of days to pull this shit together and if I don't feel like I'm going somewhere by Friday, I guess I'll drop out. I'm not a fast writer anymore--if I can't get an ending roughed out by the end of the week, I'll never have anything by May 1st. I was rolling along pretty well throughout the weekend, about 3000 words--not great, but not bad--and then it fell apart when I realized I had no idea where it was headed. Which isn't terminal if you're posting a WIP but not if you're trying to make a deadline. :(

I'm just bitching here because I need to get this out, and I can't at home. You know how they are about my hobby. Not entirely non-supportive, but they're much happier if I never mention it at all. So, I just kind of wander around all bitey-lip and swearing I'm fine because it always feels silly to get so emotional about something that's only important to me and a few folks in a faraway land who might possibly be unicorns, for all I know. *sigh* Thanks for letting me babble. I'm going to print out all the fucking ugly pages and look over them at work tomorrow. And if anyone asks me what I'm doing I'm going to straight up tell them, "Wondering how I can get these brothers to fuck each other...any ideas?"

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[runedgirl.livejournal.com]

I just got stuck staring at Dru's comment for like five minutes. lol. *ahem* I'm chiming in to say don't give up - I'm also empathizing with you, since I'm not sure how my big bang is going to end either. I have a general idea, but I'm certainly not there yet. Remember that you only need to have a rough draft done by May 1 - I keep reminding myself of that. Sketch out the rest of the story and the ending, and you can go back and flesh out the rough parts later, whether that's with Sam and Dean tumbling into bed or holding hands or just growing old together. Just don't give up, because I selfishly want to read your story! :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I want to read *your* story!!

I was looking at this haystack of a story and wondering if I could fake a middle and an end...like, is it a rough if it's rough enough to sand wood? I don't know...

just growing old together.

That would be the best ending. :)