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I'm a measly 1000 words into my MOL sequel. What's holding me up is this lazy not wanting to research. I've got to do music and TV and movies and places...usually much fun but I'm just kind of dragging my feet.
In the mean time, I had some kind of weird ass frickin' J2 a/b/o dream and that's not even much my flavor. Bleah. It was really odd, not a lot of visuals but strangely tactile and that hardly ever, ever happens. I don't feel things or smell stuff that often in dreams. It's mostly all visual and rampant emotions. *shakes head* It was seriously weird. I think I need to stop reading stuff that makes me gnash my teeth, too. Why do I love torturing myself this way? With the reading and the triggering tropes? Is it like my version of self-abuse only without the blood and scaring?
Watch, I'll end up trying to write my way out of it just like I tried to write my way out of a horrible rape dream I had once. Hello, Firebird, looking at you.
My birthday's coming up soon. I'm going to be 59. You know what that means? It means no one wants to hear about your sex life anymore, no matter how good it is. I'm going to start lying about my age. From now on, I'm going on 70. That way folks will be like, "Girl, fuck me you look FABULOUS!" See how that goes? If I tell folks my real age, they're like, "*wince* Ooo, damn--you sure? I woulda said 60-some. Hunh."
Oh well, let the good times roll. Toujours gai and shit. ;)
I'm a measly 1000 words into my MOL sequel. What's holding me up is this lazy not wanting to research. I've got to do music and TV and movies and places...usually much fun but I'm just kind of dragging my feet.
In the mean time, I had some kind of weird ass frickin' J2 a/b/o dream and that's not even much my flavor. Bleah. It was really odd, not a lot of visuals but strangely tactile and that hardly ever, ever happens. I don't feel things or smell stuff that often in dreams. It's mostly all visual and rampant emotions. *shakes head* It was seriously weird. I think I need to stop reading stuff that makes me gnash my teeth, too. Why do I love torturing myself this way? With the reading and the triggering tropes? Is it like my version of self-abuse only without the blood and scaring?
Watch, I'll end up trying to write my way out of it just like I tried to write my way out of a horrible rape dream I had once. Hello, Firebird, looking at you.
My birthday's coming up soon. I'm going to be 59. You know what that means? It means no one wants to hear about your sex life anymore, no matter how good it is. I'm going to start lying about my age. From now on, I'm going on 70. That way folks will be like, "Girl, fuck me you look FABULOUS!" See how that goes? If I tell folks my real age, they're like, "*wince* Ooo, damn--you sure? I woulda said 60-some. Hunh."
Oh well, let the good times roll. Toujours gai and shit. ;)
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7/31/13 03:14 am (UTC)a/b/o... Hmm, must research.
Firebird was, as I've told you before, the only story of yours I couldn't read because of the violence. And I loved The Dog! Interesting to learn it was inspired by an awful dream.
Me, I can't write fiction anymore. Got tired of my own characters, which is just sad. I need some inspiration but would rather not have a terrible dream to get it!
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7/31/13 03:29 am (UTC)And you know, only you and me know what hotpants are. My kid was shocked to find out that not one of her friends knew what the heck she was talking about, hah!
Ach, that a/b/o thing can be horrifying, but I've read a few stories that were actually thinky and good. I've only read in SpN fandom, not sure what other fandoms feature this odd ass trope.
That Firebird dream was the weirdest thing. Clark and Lex were standing in the shadows listening to Lenin speak about revolution and somehow Clark isolated Lex and raped him in a really violent way, so bad that when I woke up I was scared! Horrified that I had a dream about rape and horrified that it was *Clark*. It changed a lot on it's way to the page, so to speak, but it really shocked the hell out of me. Mostly I have really, really mild dreams about kissing someone. My dream self is a little prudish. But a good kisser. :D
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7/31/13 03:39 am (UTC)Fanlore.org just filled me in on what a/b/o is. Not to my taste, though I remember reading some of that in the HP fandom. (One rather startling example had Harry involved with both Remus and Sirius. I wouldn't reread it and was ambivalent even at the time.) Wonder why you dreamed about it!
Kissing dreams would be lovely. I dreamed once, many years ago, about kissing Bruce Cockburn. Still remember that one. I miss kissing more than I miss the rest of it!