AAAAAAAHH!
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roxyLet me share my pain with you beloveds...did I not research for my Beatles story? Did I not check facts? And then did I not just go ahead and screw it up anyway? Grrr! I'm off on the boys ages by FOUR years! Damn it! how in the hell did I do that--Grrrrrrrrr.I'm so angry with myself. Plus that tanks the bit I'm working on now. I'd cry, but I'm too mad at myself. See--fact checkers are worth their weight in gold, my beloveds.
*pout* let me go pull that story, and kick the desk.
And for those of you who are looking for Summer Story--here's what's up.
Lex is about to do something that's morally wrong but not necessarily bad, Clark is upset but lets him do it.He's not happy about Lex's decision but he understands why Lex thinks it's necessary.
Does it mean Lex is going to be like his father no matter what?
Strangely I started this thing with the idea that Lex isn't doomed to follow his heritage, that friendship with the boys keeps him from being swallowed up by his dad's shadow, but it doesn't seem to be working out that way. Every time I turn him in a direction away from his pop and his influence, it works right back to Lionel again. It's very interesting since with this I'm working from the vaguest outline (obviously) unlike Fire Bird. Yes, yes, I know it didn't seem like it, but Fire Bird was a lot tighter than Summer Story. This one's more like a leisurely ramble through the park, stuff happens along the way, kind of thing.
So why am I being pulled back to Lex falling all the time?
I think the story will end with Lex as not a bad man, but one who can justify an immoral act if it's meant to benefit others. Maybe the difference will be a Clark who can see the shades of gray and live with them, and in that way help Lex to keep from tipping over into crazy Lionel territory?
If so-- does that mean Lex corrupts Clark or that Clark is a little wiser than the boy-scout we all know and love? Because there's a point in everyones life that they make a decision that isn't strictly speaking the right moral choice, choices that aren't even dramatic or earth shaking but aren't right according to Sister John Wayne, you know what I mean?
Choices.
*looks at what she wrote* wow. That's a lot of thought. geez-- a little much for just a brain -diddler like SS, hah! Any hoo-- I'll update as soon as I can get the boys to talk pretty to me, (and i'll see what i can do about my other problem.*SOB*)
Love you! See how I get when I don't talk to you in a while? Skeery!
*pout* let me go pull that story, and kick the desk.
And for those of you who are looking for Summer Story--here's what's up.
Lex is about to do something that's morally wrong but not necessarily bad, Clark is upset but lets him do it.He's not happy about Lex's decision but he understands why Lex thinks it's necessary.
Does it mean Lex is going to be like his father no matter what?
Strangely I started this thing with the idea that Lex isn't doomed to follow his heritage, that friendship with the boys keeps him from being swallowed up by his dad's shadow, but it doesn't seem to be working out that way. Every time I turn him in a direction away from his pop and his influence, it works right back to Lionel again. It's very interesting since with this I'm working from the vaguest outline (obviously) unlike Fire Bird. Yes, yes, I know it didn't seem like it, but Fire Bird was a lot tighter than Summer Story. This one's more like a leisurely ramble through the park, stuff happens along the way, kind of thing.
So why am I being pulled back to Lex falling all the time?
I think the story will end with Lex as not a bad man, but one who can justify an immoral act if it's meant to benefit others. Maybe the difference will be a Clark who can see the shades of gray and live with them, and in that way help Lex to keep from tipping over into crazy Lionel territory?
If so-- does that mean Lex corrupts Clark or that Clark is a little wiser than the boy-scout we all know and love? Because there's a point in everyones life that they make a decision that isn't strictly speaking the right moral choice, choices that aren't even dramatic or earth shaking but aren't right according to Sister John Wayne, you know what I mean?
Choices.
*looks at what she wrote* wow. That's a lot of thought. geez-- a little much for just a brain -diddler like SS, hah! Any hoo-- I'll update as soon as I can get the boys to talk pretty to me, (and i'll see what i can do about my other problem.*SOB*)
Love you! See how I get when I don't talk to you in a while? Skeery!
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1/7/05 04:13 am (UTC)It's interesting how much of a life of their own your characters have, huh, pulling you in directions you didn't think they'd go ... Weird. But cool!
And you know what else is weird, is how Whit-centric most of your chapters are ... and how much I like them! I've never been a Whit fan, but I like this guy and really feel for him. Not so much cuz of the horrible abuse he had as a kid, but because he's so complex and real. The wise cracking, the moodiness, the neediness, the brittle armor he wears, the huge mushy heart he has, even if it is hidden most of the time ... I also love that he didn't take advantage or let himself be used by Sam when he was all drunk - cuz I'm really hoping for those 2 (boo bitch!Sheryl) and if he had gone along with it, it probably would have screwed up any chance he and Sam might have had in future.
And best of all, how Wade's death finally really hit him out of the blue like that. So realistic, the unrelated thoughts and images and the sudden breakdown ... Charlie must be very confused right now, but what a nice guy for helping Whit. I just hope that 1) he's straight, cuz we need more kind, conderate, not homophobic or even just uncomfortable around gays straight men in slash fics and 2) that he's not actually that shapechanging chick and is gonna hurt him or something! *bites nails*
So, when can I expect some more? In about 10 minutes, I hope?? *eg*
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1/7/05 04:41 am (UTC)As for Charlie, I did play with the idea that he was straight, but changed my mind--I want Whit to have some happiness. I know-- it's "My Big Fat Gay Town Syndrome" but it's my planet so--pfft!
Besides, you can't get straighter then poor Pete...
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1/8/05 04:13 am (UTC)Ack!! NO!! I want Sam and Whit *chants*
Sam and Whit
Sam and Whit
Wham and Sit!
Oops, got a little tongue tied there ... but still. *g*
Besides, you can't get straighter then poor Pete...
Yeah, but there has to more than just him and the 'rents .... *sniffles* Well, hopefully Sam or Whit will have something to say about it (something I want to hear, I mean, LOL).
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1/8/05 04:51 pm (UTC)Yeah, but there has to more than just him and the 'rents .... *sniffles* Well, hopefully Sam or Whit will have something to say about it (something I want to hear, I mean, LOL).
Oh sure, but that's another story. I'm not bringing in anymore folks from canon, and I'm sure not adding anymore OC's for cryin' out loud! (kicks enormous cast of strangers.)Actually, that's a story I'd really like to write...ooooo...you give me good ideas!