Dear Ones...

[roxy]

I have a confession to make. Please don't yell at me and tell me I'm a fool, I know it.

I can't watch Lex be that bad guy. I don't want to see it, it doesn't make me happy, I'm not all excited by EvilLex--I don't even really like it all that much in fic. I'll read an EvilLex fic, depending on the author because excellent writing makes even the most awful idea a pleasure to read. (in a hurty owie kind of way) but as we know, this is not the case in SV.

I want them to be friends forever, I want Lex to say, "Oh, no thanks, no evil, I'll have really good sex for a lifetime instead." I want Clark to look at him with almost as much amazement as he did in the beginning...(not as awed anymore, 'cause he knows Lex likes to eat crackers in the bed and shove the crumbs on Clark's side)

I know how the story is supposed to end, and I know I'm supposed to want it. But you know it's making me so sad that I can barely even write them anymore. Stupid, I know. I'm happy for the folks who can't wait, I kind of envy them. Exactaly what they want is going to happen, and it should happen.
I just don't want it to.

Comments

[beeej.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I hear ya. The only thing that keeps me going is that I've rationalized that Clark has a lot of growing up to do, and a lot to learn before he becomes Supes. And by the time he does, Lex will have become BigBad!Lex, but even so, deep down they will still always love each other. That paves the way for all those wonderful mending-the-rift future fics I love so much. :)

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Yes. *nods* I must hold to that thought.