Dear Ones...

[roxy]

I have a confession to make. Please don't yell at me and tell me I'm a fool, I know it.

I can't watch Lex be that bad guy. I don't want to see it, it doesn't make me happy, I'm not all excited by EvilLex--I don't even really like it all that much in fic. I'll read an EvilLex fic, depending on the author because excellent writing makes even the most awful idea a pleasure to read. (in a hurty owie kind of way) but as we know, this is not the case in SV.

I want them to be friends forever, I want Lex to say, "Oh, no thanks, no evil, I'll have really good sex for a lifetime instead." I want Clark to look at him with almost as much amazement as he did in the beginning...(not as awed anymore, 'cause he knows Lex likes to eat crackers in the bed and shove the crumbs on Clark's side)

I know how the story is supposed to end, and I know I'm supposed to want it. But you know it's making me so sad that I can barely even write them anymore. Stupid, I know. I'm happy for the folks who can't wait, I kind of envy them. Exactaly what they want is going to happen, and it should happen.
I just don't want it to.

Comments

[nerowill.livejournal.com]

Wow! I hadn't exactly realized what my problem was but you nailed it on the head. I don't want to see Lex be evil. I don't want to know how the rift happens. I don't want it to happen at all... The continuation of the show to its inevitable conclusion is sucking all the joy out of it for me. Frankly, this is why I didn't watch the show in the beginning or reads the fics--I was afraid it would all be way too depressing. Then I got sucked in and most of the fic written in the first few seasons either ignored the rift or fixed it... I find it so hard stay in that positive mindset now given where the show has gone. And I find it almost impossible to completely erase canon from my mind. *sigh*