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[roxy]

Since dropping out of all challenges, I expected to feel lighter and inspired but instead, the idea of writing is leaving me all 'meh'. I'm doing all my writing in the shower. In my head, you know. Not like I'm standing in the shower with a notebook like a crazy person or anything. *koff*

I wonder if rewriting a horrible story I wrote would jump-start my brain? It's such a good idea, and I even posted it a couple of years ago, but on rereading it lately, I saw how much it sucked. I think I was just unsure of the characters, Anita Blake's Edward and Dean. Now, I have a handle on Dean--or I have a Dean in my head that I like and use as the Dean in my SpN fics.

Edward's a little harder. I had some problems with him in the story, and I think I wrote him a little backwards. I definitely want to retry that fic, and see if I can get closer to the character.

Wow, this is a lot of words for what was a tiiiiny little ficlet!

Comments

[garryowen]

Hm. A rewrite. Interesting! If you're excited about it, you should do it!

[roxy]

It's such an interesting idea I hate to let it go, you know? I think that I've learned a little bit since then.

[darkemeralds]

I'm not sure I have anything to offer except a sympathetic sigh and a nod and a hug on "the idea of writing is leaving me all 'meh'." I just hate it when that happens. I get so much joy out of writing, even the hard parts of writing, that when writing absents itself altogether, I feel compass-less.

On the plus side, when it comes back (and it does, it always does) it feels fabulous. Hope yours comes back soon.

[roxy]

I get so much joy out of writing, even the hard parts of writing, that when writing absents itself altogether, I feel compass-less.


Yes, my goodness, that describes it completely. For so long now this has been me that I hardly know how to deal with it. It feels a little bit like it did when I quit smoking and felt lost and not sure just who I was if I wasn't Smoking Roxy anymore.