Roxy, Mizz Rose

Since dropping out of all challenges, I expected to feel lighter and inspired but instead, the idea of writing is leaving me all 'meh'. I'm doing all my writing in the shower. In my head, you know. Not like I'm standing in the shower with a notebook like a crazy person or anything. *koff*

I wonder if rewriting a horrible story I wrote would jump-start my brain? It's such a good idea, and I even posted it a couple of years ago, but on rereading it lately, I saw how much it sucked. I think I was just unsure of the characters, Anita Blake's Edward and Dean. Now, I have a handle on Dean--or I have a Dean in my head that I like and use as the Dean in my SpN fics.

Edward's a little harder. I had some problems with him in the story, and I think I wrote him a little backwards. I definitely want to retry that fic, and see if I can get closer to the character.

Wow, this is a lot of words for what was a tiiiiny little ficlet!

Heh. I'm lurking over here until I get over embarrassing myself in LJ. From now on, delete *all* the whiny comments. On the other hand, I got the loveliest note from a non-LJ having person, who delurked to tell me to stop whining in a way that made me squee and gambol!

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by the challenges I signed up for. I'm doing okay on my X-over story, thanks *so* much danceswithgary. I'm thinking of dropping the SpNBig Bang. Not the story, just trying to get done by dead-line. Gosh, I used to easily juggle two or three fics back in the day. I've really gotten slow, writing wise. But, I've also grown to be a calmer, wiser, warmer, and more open person.

HAH! Sure you're right. ;)

So, what's happening with my peeps?

So let me share my ego collapse in fic writing. Writing SV got me spoiled stupid--In the last few years,I always had a pretty decent response to my stories. In fact lately, I've had what for me, is a wild response when I post SV. It's kind of mind boggling and god knows I love it. :) SpN, on the other hand...I post, and it's pretty much Cricketville. Dusty streets filled with tumbleweed. It's pretty humbling, I'll say. And disappointing, sure. Doesn't mean I'll stop writing it, because I love the various stories of these guys. But yeah, there are a hell of a lot of good writers, steep competition (it's the fandom of pain, in many ways, heh).

anyhoo, a shiny new fandom is winking at me, making me blush and giggle. I'll certainly never write in it, like loads of other fandoms I enjoy, but reading will be tons of fun. I need John Cooper icons! *G*