WHAT!

[roxy]

California Sun is turning into a shmoopy piece of shmoopness--what the bloody fuck!!

So, ever reread your own stuff and think holy shit, that is the worst piece of shit I've ever had the displeasure to clap eyes on--especially when you remember it as being pretty good? On the flip side of that, there's one story I have that I reread once a year since writing it, mostly because it was the weirdest, most out there thing I've ever written, and usually my reaction is "oy--the pain". But I reread it yesterday and you know, I think it's a damn good story, and it worked even though back then, I thought it didn't. I'd go so far as to say it's the best story I've ever written. It made me feel pretty good, but it also kind of made me feel a little failery, because I don't think I've written anything as good since. And that was three years ago. *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*

On the upside, I continue to be as cute as a bug's ear, heck yeah. Continuing to share the good stuff with you, I had a most delicious plum! Sweet and tart and juicy. Don't you hate buying a pretty plum and having it taste and feel like biting into a hockey puck? Yeah.....

Oh well. Back to Dean and Pat making googly eyes at each other. Saps.

ETA: the story is Deal

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delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*backs away slowly...*

Um...I'm writing the shmoop now? Oh, okay--it's my brand of shmoop! It's going to get shmoopier? Pat and Dean make a connection...of some kind?

Oh man, we just had the best watermelon--crisp and sweet and that perfect shade. It's rare to get a good one from the store. I hated to share it--I mean--we all enjoyed it. Except for my dad, who won't eat watermelon, or fried chicken out. Or wear jeans--he says jeans are for field-hands. *LOL*

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[tabaqui]

HA. I'll bet you are. The schmoop of 'i want to kill myself'.
*is grumpy*

Heeeeee. I hate sharing a good watermelon, too.

And your dad! Well, i can kinda understand his reasoning, since he's an older guy. People probably gave him too much shite over it.
*people suck*

I don't think i ever saw my dad in jeans. He wore a cover-all when he mowed the grass and stuff, but pretty much it was always slacks. And track suits when he was older.

Maybe when he was a kid, but they would have been 'dungarees'. :)

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

track suits, yeah! Most guys Dad's age (89) firmly believe folks judge them by appearances. I'll bet most folks these days wouldn't even get why he won't eat watermelon! But when it's hot, there's nothing better! It's a fruit *and* a toy! Olympic seed-spitting, best summer game ever!

Ooooooo! I need to use that in a story! One without the broken, bleeding, angsty loneliness..*koff*

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[tabaqui]

Heeee. Well, you know...people really do, to a degree, unfortunately. I tell Monstrous that. Tell her it's wrong, too, but there it is.

I could never spit the seeds very far. Now, you can hardly buy 'em with seeds.

Yeah, how 'bout a story with some *love* and some *happiness* and some pretty boys having un-guilty sex!!!
I mean, sheesh.
*people who don't know me must think i'm a total bee-yotch*
:)

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

oh, they probably just think YOU ABUSE POOR LITTLE OLD ME HORRIBLY. *big brown bambie eyes shimmering with tears*

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[tabaqui]

YES EXACTLY.

And they wonder why you keep me around.
*cackles madly*

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

How could I not? *be all stupified with lub* ;)

Conner, Conner--you sweet thing.

Re: delusional? hunh. that explains so much....

[tabaqui]

Gods, i know. The boys need to meet Connor in a totally not angsty, dirtybadwrong *filth* way.
*cough*

:)

*luffs you hardcore*