Me. It's always me....

[roxy]

So, here's what's going on.

Not so good news: Pop's not doing much better after having a positive upswing, he kind of crashed again. Good news, the therapists seem to think he can do well if he tries to. Bad news, he tells me he wants it to be over. So, I choose to think he means therapy. Anything else, and I'd be driven to kick his ass. It's a twisty, windy road we're taking here.

Good news: Today's Mr. Roxy's 52nd birthday! We had a nice day together, and BG came over with the Boyfriend to spend some time with us. She brought a cake and a new radio to replace the one she stole borrowed.

Other good news: Tomorrow's my 30th anniversary! I got my gift all ready--30 beautiful red roses. They look like a fucking shrub sitting on the table...*G*

Also, this is why I haven't been around much, or commented too much, or written much. I have some bits of The Lonely, I don't know if I should just post the small bitlets, or wait until I have a bigger post to make--what do you guys who are reading it want? I'm kind of stymied and need your input. *wibbly smile*

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[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ah, dammit. All this stuff sucks, doesn't it? Being grown up and having to face real things and the real world and having to be not selfish and having to be *good*. When all you wanna do is scream and cry and throw things.

Yes, and yes--that's me to a tee. Thank the lord, Mr. R is a saint of a man, with the patience of--I don't know what, but it's endless. He's highly resistant to tantrums and bad behavior and he knows when a hug is needed. You should see him with my dad....

This is so different than with my mom. With Mom, it was so sudden--so quick you know? This....

But really, I feel better now--like I know at least how to think about it now. Thanks so much--*clings, but with less sniveling, really!*

[tabaqui]

Oh, my darling beloved. You can snivel all you like. RL sucks. Being a grown up sucks.
*clings back*
*hugs you tight*