ready to give up

[roxy]

The story I worked so hard on is dead in the water and it's really bringing me down. I've been trying not to whine and cry here but I just can't hold it in anymore.

The Beloved Niece gave me pointers and peptalks and ideas but still. I think I'm stymied at the thought of rewriting major portions of it. Huge portions. *sigh* I don't want to, I'm too lazy to. No one's read it so no one is waiting for new bits and...blaaaaaargh.

I feel like I'm back in school. *pout*

I was so swamped in self-pity, whining and snotting all over the place, that I decided to delete my LJ and never worry about this kind of thing again as Bob is my witless. But Comcast said "no internet for the rest of the evening for you, my friend" and I couldn't so I didn't. That, plus guilt, not to mention that it really is kind of stupid to delete the damn thing when all I have to do is walk away from it, kept me from doing it this morning (well, that and some excellent stories).

And of course without an LJ, I'd be deprived of the overwhelming pleasure you get from the occasional comment on an old story. Which by the way if you're lurking here, step up and comment, damn it, my ego is taking a beating!

Comments

[jlvsclrk.livejournal.com]

*hug* I can only imagine how painful it must be to contemplate needing to do such a massive rewrite. Maybe try turning your hand to some good old fashioned PWP to restore your mojo? I know how much I'd miss it if you ever stopped posting.

[locknkey.livejournal.com]

::huggles::

Sorry you're bummed, BB.

I admit I haven't caught up on reading. Both NTM and the end Impossible Things are in my "to read" list. I suck, BB. :)

Sorry the story is going ass up. :(

[lexalicious70.livejournal.com]

NEVER LEAVE ME. *CLINGS*

And now it's time to be serious, and this is the honest truth: I have told more than person that you're a role model for me. Really, you are! You're an amazing writer, and you don't let labels tell you when someone should stop being fandom or when they're "too mature" to write fanfic. You've always flown in the face of that, and you're my hero for that. I mean it.

You also make me laugh like hell most days, and I'd miss you so much if you left. My LJ life would suck a lot more without you.

I know how frustrating the writing process can be, believe me . . . if you ever need to PM someone about it, I'm always around.

*HUGEHUGS*

[jesseofthenorth.livejournal.com]

Please don't runaway from LJ. I for one would really miss your lip wit.
Look. I get it on the story. That always sucks. But just shelve it. I get my ass kicked by stuff all the time. I paint myself into corners, I screw-up characterizations, I make myself CRY FFS!
Shelve it. Move on to something fun even if it's just spamming the shit out of your friends. Look at it when it doesn't make you want to cry.

[tabaqui]

My dearest, darling, most beloved RoxyMissRose....

If you ever delete your lj and walk away from me i will hunt you down and make you so. Damn. Sorry.

Just sayin'.

[aloneindarknes7.livejournal.com]

I know I'm not really in any of the fandoms you are in anymore, but I still always remember you from how nice and awesome you were to me back when we did share fandoms. You might be going through a tough time now, but you'll always be awesome. I'm totally sure of that. *huggles*

[mahaliem.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I hate massive rewriting. The worst, for me, is trying to rewrite the story in a different tense - I just totally shut down.

[danceswithgary]

Please don't leave me. *clings*

[rednihilist.livejournal.com]

Can I say "I know how you feel" and not come off as a total asshat? *SMUSHES YOU* Sorry you're having a hard time, but, as ironic as it is coming from yours truly, please, please, please don't give up and axe your lj! I love you and all your stories, both fic and RL. And, on a purely selfish note, I don't know what I'd do if one day I clicked on and found your journal had been deleted and purged. Thank you, Comcast, for impeccable timing!

So, yeah, S, STOP IT! We love you for *you*! The stories are awesome, muy muy awesome, but don't throw in the towel just yet. I have faith that you'll slap the shit out of this story (is it Diamond Dogs?) and get it back to behavin' 'neath your spiky boot heel.

To cheer you up, the thought occurred that I might give you a sneak peek at my Four Brothers fic. . . if you're interested. Anything to bribe my roxy. *SQUEEZES you and never lets you go*

ETA: You make me tear up, my precious Snuggles, and you do it better than anyone else. You made me create an lj account in the first place, just so I could be cool and gushcomment with a userpic like you. Don't even joke about this stuff, and, yes, I now know how it feels. :/ I'm on the other side of it now, though, and, hon? You will be, too, you know.

God, I love you! Ferris Bueller, you're my hero!!!

[myownghost.livejournal.com]

ah no, lj would be too sad without roxy! please to hang in there. start another story, maybe, and recycle some of this dead-in-the-water one. (my motto: for the writer [or poet], nothing is ever wasted.)

[me-ya-ri.livejournal.com]

*huge smishing snuggle-hugs* Don't leave! We've got cookies! *waves cookies under your nose*

Seriously though, I do understand the frustration and not wanting to rewrite. It's part of why I'm less than enthused about it when people say I ought to rewrite my original stories and submit them. That's too much work! *whines*

I'm glad Comcast was there to stop and you and dang, I'd comment on all of your stories if only I had the time to read. >.> Darn life is making it hard to do anything fun! My favorite is still A Young Kryptonian's Travels--so much fun!

*stuffs you with cookies* Stick around and enjoy the fun, Roxy. Writing can wait until you have more inspiration.

[silsbee329.livejournal.com]

NO.
I'm with your friend who says to write some short stuff and just pepper it out there until you can face that monster again. Just don't leave us. :(

[rosy5000.livejournal.com]

Meep! You are never ever never never ever never ever allowed to leave! If I have to I will chain you to LJ so you can't. Then, I will torture you with feathers for even thinking of doing so! *clings to your ankles* ♥

[twinsarein.livejournal.com]

Ack! You can't say things like that, you'll give me a heart attack. And, it is so obviously all about me. I'll send you chocolates if you stay. Ooo, no. I'll send you a naked Clark. Ooo, ooo, no! I'll send you a naked Clark with chocolates. Will that do it? I have nothing better than that.

Except to be honest, I suppose. I'd miss you. Your posts, way of looking at things, and your sense of humor brighten my time on LJ. I really don't want you to go. So...yeah. I got nothing else.

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

You better not go anywhere, missy!

[dawnybee.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're having a hard time with the writing. Don't leave us. Here's some Jensen to sweeten the deal.

[tzi.livejournal.com]

Dude, don't be running off on me. Okay, we're not in the same fandoms much anymore, but I still enjoy seeing what you're doing, you know?

[day221b.livejournal.com]

Please don't delete your LJ! I haven't read any fic in the SPN or Smallville fandom in what seems like forever, but I always look forward to seeing a post from you. Anyway, I hope that whatever dark muse has prompted such an intense, almost instinctual reaction flitters (is this even a word?) out.

Also, I completely understand your dead-in-the-water story issues. I have a fanfic (novel size - help!) that shares a current status with yours. Don't give up, hon!

Hugs you!