ready to give up
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roxyThe story I worked so hard on is dead in the water and it's really bringing me down. I've been trying not to whine and cry here but I just can't hold it in anymore.
The Beloved Niece gave me pointers and peptalks and ideas but still. I think I'm stymied at the thought of rewriting major portions of it. Huge portions. *sigh* I don't want to, I'm too lazy to. No one's read it so no one is waiting for new bits and...blaaaaaargh.
I feel like I'm back in school. *pout*
I was so swamped in self-pity, whining and snotting all over the place, that I decided to delete my LJ and never worry about this kind of thing again as Bob is my witless. But Comcast said "no internet for the rest of the evening for you, my friend" and I couldn't so I didn't. That, plus guilt, not to mention that it really is kind of stupid to delete the damn thing when all I have to do is walk away from it, kept me from doing it this morning (well, that and some excellent stories).
And of course without an LJ, I'd be deprived of the overwhelming pleasure you get from the occasional comment on an old story. Which by the way if you're lurking here, step up and comment, damn it, my ego is taking a beating!
The Beloved Niece gave me pointers and peptalks and ideas but still. I think I'm stymied at the thought of rewriting major portions of it. Huge portions. *sigh* I don't want to, I'm too lazy to. No one's read it so no one is waiting for new bits and...blaaaaaargh.
I feel like I'm back in school. *pout*
I was so swamped in self-pity, whining and snotting all over the place, that I decided to delete my LJ and never worry about this kind of thing again as Bob is my witless. But Comcast said "no internet for the rest of the evening for you, my friend" and I couldn't so I didn't. That, plus guilt, not to mention that it really is kind of stupid to delete the damn thing when all I have to do is walk away from it, kept me from doing it this morning (well, that and some excellent stories).
And of course without an LJ, I'd be deprived of the overwhelming pleasure you get from the occasional comment on an old story. Which by the way if you're lurking here, step up and comment, damn it, my ego is taking a beating!
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2/4/11 02:03 am (UTC)And now it's time to be serious, and this is the honest truth: I have told more than person that you're a role model for me. Really, you are! You're an amazing writer, and you don't let labels tell you when someone should stop being fandom or when they're "too mature" to write fanfic. You've always flown in the face of that, and you're my hero for that. I mean it.
You also make me laugh like hell most days, and I'd miss you so much if you left. My LJ life would suck a lot more without you.
I know how frustrating the writing process can be, believe me . . . if you ever need to PM someone about it, I'm always around.
*HUGEHUGS*
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2/4/11 06:09 pm (UTC)I say I'm leaving but I can't--I would miss folks like you too much! So many days, your posts are the only things that make me laugh. I like all my flist but some folks are special to me and you're definitely right there. *HUGS*
NOT LEAVING YOU!!!!