SpN 8X09 my off the cuff first reaction

[roxy]

I'm a Dean girl, always have been, even though I don't make a big deal about it. What a douche. I'm going to take a deep breath, do a little woosah. No, fuck that, where does he get *off* with that shit? This is the first time I've ever thought that he made a call that was totally, completely wrong. In seven seasons, he's been a jerk, but let's face it, he's always been right. Not tonight. That was harsh, that was mean, and that was totally self-serving. Trust me, I know very well from self-serving dickery and that was a prime example. He *knew* that was going to hurt. Boy, Dean never forgets and only half-forgives, hunh? How is Sam supposed to come back from that? How are they asking us to *forget* about that? Sam paid all the penance he needs to pay, *all* of it. Anything he did wrong, and don't tell me he wasn't a fucking bitch to Dean with Ruby and the seals and whatnot, he was--but he paid for that. He's got a clean slate. But Dean...*holds up hands* I can't even think right now.

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[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

They don't think about it, but they take down everyone around them in betwixt all of the other stuff; whether it be for love, anger or jealousy. In that respect, both Sam and Dean hurt (and have hurt) a lot of good people all because of their "crazy, tangled up thing" (think I got that right). That includes each other and themselves.

It's *so* screwed up. I thought that with Lisa, and it would have happened with any relationship Dean ever had, and it's going to always be an issue with Sam. I can see Sam doing his best to show Dean he can have a relationship with a person and do it better than Dean never could and meanwhile make himself and some poor woman miserable.

I pray that for *once*, they actually make their relationship better or at least put them in a place where they can actually head that way.