Confession Time

[roxy]

you guys kind of get that I'm probably not going to write SV anymore, right? So anyone who's here for that, please feel free to defriend me. *geeck--ack--sniffle* Really, it's okay. No really, it's okay. I know it can be really disappointing when you're waiting for a new story that never comes.

I don't know if it will ever come again, but I'm not going to pretend like it might when I'm not sure. But no doubt, Clark is still the sun, and Lex is still the moon, and I still love them together. I sill love Whit, and Lucas, and Wade. I'll just be loving them from over_________here, instead of rightherelikethis.

I'm even more invested in watching SV, more than I've ever been, strangely enough. I love the show this year, and Clark is hotter, and better, than *ever*. Speak no evil about my Clark, I won't hear it. Unless it's a hot, juicy angst-filled cheating on Lois with Bruce evil kind of story. That kind of evil I'll take. Also, okay, maybe I should rewrite the 2nd Dis Pater so that Clark does erase Lex's memory since that's now canon as something Clark would do. At least without Martha around to slap him upside the head and tell him "Hell no, boy, is you crazy?"

So, the gist of this babble is no fic, defriend at will. Ignore my enormous hankie, for to be wiping my tears away.

Emotional blackmail, moi? Ha, do not be silly!

Comments

[justabi.livejournal.com]

By which I mean, you were the one who gave me my freedom when I was all angsting and torn up inside about SV and how much I couldn't write it anymore. The only thing I needed to know was that you'd still love me, and that it was okay, and I love you for telling me it was time.

And now I'm telling you the truth: look at all the people who love you - they will love you wherever you go. There are less of them than you think, and more than you know.

Of course, there are also people who just love your stories, and some of them will go when the characters change, but then, the characters would have changed anyway. Some of them won't bother to read the new stuff, and that hurts, but most of them, if they try it, will love your new stories, too.

You'll lose lurkers and then you'll get new lurkers in your new fandom, and you'll have new fangirls. You'll lose a few people that will make your heart hurt, because they think you don't have anything in common anymore and you can keep them for yourself or not. You'll lose collaborators. You'll get new ones. You'll miss the old ones.

But more than that, more than any of the people you'll find and lose, you'll find your new characters and you'll love them and hurt them and pet them and they'll make their own little apartments in your heart and natter on in your brain and you'll be happy.

And I'll love you, so of course, you'll win. Until you die, of course. I mean, you are getting on in years...

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Ah, earlier I had a slightly more coherent post, but it got eated. Shit, coherency is vastly overrated anyway.

So, gosh...I was all cool with what I said last night, and here I am in a tailspin of depression about it.

You'll lose a few people that will make your heart hurt, because they think you don't have anything in common anymore

man, that's the thing I dread the most. Fandom has never been as important to me as the people. I just like who I like. I miss people very much, but I have to say, lately I haven't done much to keep folks around either. The baby birds don't need me anymore, and the new folks are as different as the seasons of SV are. I *know* some folks will love me regardless, and I love them right back. Very, very, *very* much. Even if they're evil little age-ist girls who insist on picking on their poor, defenseless and above all, harmless elders....

*hugs you tight*

[justabi.livejournal.com]

There was one week I lost 30 people from my flist. That was a little hurty. But, you know, you meet new people and you run back into old people and it really doesn't turn out in the end to be as big a deal as it felt the week everyone jumps ship. I think I probably lost around a hundred people when I switched fandoms, somewhere around that, but then you will pick up new peeps who heretofore haven't known the brilliance that is Roxy. You'll see. Plus, you know half of the old SV girls went on to SPN. You'll find people you haven't seen around in years. It'll be awesome. Plus, you know, *me*. *giggle* I make up for like six lurkers!