Oh.

[roxy]

erf.

I watched the SV ep for this past week finally.

So I have some thoughts, typical Roxy kind of thoughts you know, shit I'd say to you if you were in my kitchen drinking coffe with me--off the cuff of my brain kind of thing....
I'm such an idiot--I just cried and cried. Shit.

Poor fucked up Clark--he's such an asshole. He really thinks that everything wrong in his life's been solved now that he's "normal" and thinks he doesn't need Lex anymore...I feel so sorry for him.

And Lex--he thought he could have his cake and eat it too, I guess.

Now that Clark's not only given up on him but practically said he'd done that a long time ago--he has no reason to try anymore. Hell, if I was Lex, I'd want to screw him something hard and long and if it can't be the good screwing, the bad kind works just as well, and is nearly as satisfying.
I think the best description of the shit that happened is this one by fromward.

What she says makes horrible sense. I read this with a big yes, yes on my mind. See if it doesn't ring true. Plus, it's a lot prettier the way she says it.

*cries some more* Bastards.
Sometimes I hate how much I still love them.

Comments

[lastscorpion.livejournal.com]

Poor fucked up Clark--he's such an asshole


There, there. I'm right there with you. I'm telling myself it's only a TV show.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I tell myself that too, and then I watch the darn thing and --aaargh!

Angel never hurt me like this! *sniff*

[supercaptain182.livejournal.com]

He really thinks that everything wrong in his life's been solved now that he's "normal" and thinks he doesn't need Lex anymore...I feel so sorry for him.

Denial is not only a river in Egypt. Clark is living in some true to life Jerry Springer-talk showesque denial. Lex is the only force that can get him back to the path. God bless fic. No matter how fucked they make Clark and Lex, fic will always be there to truly make Clark feel normal.

[dawnybee.livejournal.com]

//I'm such an idiot--I just cried and cried. Shit.//

We won't tell anyone. ::pets your arm::

//Now that Clark's not only given up on him but practically said he'd done that a long time ago--he has no reason to try anymore. Hell, if I was Lex, I'd want to screw him something hard and long and if it can't be the good screwing, the bad kind works just as well, and is nearly as satisfying.//
Which is how I see the Rift. Clark brought him to this. So I can see Lex thinking "If I can't have you (as a friend, as something more) than dammit, I'm going to get to you someway." Posh on that Lex/Lana/Clark triangle being the reason for the rift. I've said it a million times before Clark and Lex has 99 problems but a b*tch ain't one. They can do bad by themselves.

When Lex looks at Clark with the bloodied lip with this sickening realization of "What have I done? I've lost this person." I ached for him. My poor Lex :(

Fromward makes great points.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

There are too many ways in which these two should be friends and not enough ways that they should be enemies. The show makes Clark look damn bad right now. If the end comes down to "Lex went evil because Clark was an asshole" that's hardly the foundation Superman should have.

It does make an interesting premise for fics though. *g*

And I *love* your icon!

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I've said it a million times before Clark and Lex has 99 problems but a b*tch ain't one. They can do bad by themselves.

Truth--them trying to pull that triangle out of their asses drives me nuts. Lex already gave his real opinion of Lana when he was split into Lex and Alexander. They can't tell me he wants her beyond the poon and that mostly because he figures that's as close as he's getting to Clark.

The love is there, but I'm a leeeetle bitter too. *g*

[jennifus.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I hate how much I still love them.

I couldn't agree more.

*hugs the pretty boys*

[justabi.livejournal.com]

*clings*

[rumpuso.livejournal.com]

Please don't hate 'my' Clark Ms. Roxy. I honestly understand where he is coming from AND where Lex is coming from and the thing is...it is a tragic thing that both of these boys have made errors in judgement that will affect who they will become in the future. Smallville showed us the potential for friendship, but they have also slipped in nuances of how they have come to blows (in Mortal). It was so subtle that many didn't recognize them.

Be sad for the outcome, but don't blame this entirely on Clark. Each boy made choices and each boy has pain.

(I love me some Clark).

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Thank you for sharing my pain.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*sniffs* It's like watching a friend get an ass-whipping weekly.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Oh no, no--I don't hate Clark. I could never hate him--I think I do understand Clark. He is an asshole but it's only becasue he's so young and cares so much, poor thing.


Please don't hate 'my' Clark Ms. Roxy
Gosh--you can't see the love for him all over my stories?

[rumpuso.livejournal.com]

Ok, good good. I'm sorry. I've been reading so many LJ comments from people who honestly see no fault in Lex and blame everything on Clark, that I think I'm overly jumpy. Of course I see the love in your fictions (and dammit all if I'm still trying to clear my calendar so I can read DP Jupiter).

Thanks for responding...excuse my temporary insanity.

[duskwillow.livejournal.com]

Aw. *hugs*
I'm so sorry this ep made you so sad.

[duskwillow.livejournal.com]

I'll jump right in the discussion here - I couldn't agree more with everything you just said. I loved Clex part of the episode, and thought it was done really good. This episode showed how both Clark and Lex are perfectly messed up, and disillusioned about the other one by the end.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

*huuuuuuuuuug*

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

I was kind of shocked how deeply it affected me. I still can't believe I cried. *sigh*

[ex-lexsbabym701.livejournal.com]

I didn't cry but my stomach did roll when Clark punched Lex in the face when Lex was on the ground with his hand raised for Clark to stop. There was so much pain in Lex's eyes it was just hard for me to watch.